I really don't know what to do anymore. Lately, I have been feeling extremely depressed and my anxiety has been more intense. My grades have been slipping, all the people I'm "friends" with aren't my actual friends, I've been dealing with heavy insecurity, and I've just been an overall mess. Nothing good ever happens in my life and when I think I get something that makes me a little happy, it doesn't end up that way after all. My family and even friends refuse to acknowledge my problems because they don't want another burden on their shoulders. I used to have someone who would give me support but they're not around anymore, we drifted, so I'm too scared to talk to her.
I just want some help in my life, I want to get better. I don't want to die even though, I have been thinking about ending my life every day now and during the night before, I started strangling myself, however, I didn't get through it.
I have chronic hives that I think my anxiety caused too and they've been around more often compared to the entire year I've had them around. They're extremely itchy and get worse by the second.
I just want to be able to tell these things to someone for some help, but I'm ignored and I have no one. I can't help but lay in my bed sobbing every second of the day because I'm completely alone. I feel like it's going to happen any second now.