Severely depressed

[Kenya23]

I am suffering from anxiety which is causing me to be depressed all the time. I constantly cry and worry about everything . I've even been having suicidual thoughts and really need some help!!!

[Goldfish_]

Can you tell us a bit more. How long has this been going on for, what treatment have you had so far, how old are you, is there anything that started this?

[Peacewithin1]

Hi, I'm sorry you're feeling so uncomfortable. Just know you're not alone and you will get through this. can you call the hotline when you have those thoughts? 1800-273-8255 is the number in the US. I was in the same boat as you just a month ago for a few months. I'm not completely better, but better than I was so don't give up. I'm available to chat if you need it.

[g33kgirl86]

I am sorry you feel so much pain at the moment. I have recently been where you are. Hating myself. Crying all the time, being so low that I couldn't bear the shear pain. Your post today tells me that you want to live because you are reaching out to us for help. I am still living now because I used every form of support I could because I was fighting for my life.

First thing I did was recognise what in my life has kept me here so far. For me it was my cats. They give me strength everyday and although I think my boy cat would adjust, my girl cat wouldn't and that breaks my heart more. From there I spoke to my Gp, got my meds adjusted, went to counselling, spoke to the samaritans, shared that I was suicidal with my best friend, wrote in a diary and reached out on the forum. I took all the help I could.

If you could share with us more about your situation and allow yourself to lean on us. Remember that you are so important and you will beat this. You are reaching out so you are not at rock bottom. Let us help you recover. Your soul is beautiful and you are not alone in the pain you feel.

Take care x

[Beevee]

Hi Kenya23

Sorry to learn that you are going through tough times and totally understand what it is like. I was there myself but have since recovered and you can too, no matter how bad you may feel. I too had thoughts of suicide. I didn't want to go through with it, just the thought of it scared me even more. Under the circumstances, these thoughts are completely normal. Why? Well, if you have anxiety, you will have anxious thoughts about anything and everything.

Over the past few months, I have posted lots of messages on this website on the way to recover and strongly urge you to read them. In some of those posts, I have mentioned a couple of Self Help books which explain why you currently think and feel the way you do and most importantly, how to recover. One is called Self Help for your Nerves by Dr Claire Weekes and the other is called At Last a Life by Paul David. Both books explain how and why acceptance of your current anxious state will bring back feelings of normality (peaceful mind and body) instead fighting and resisting your current state which is stopping you from recovering. There are other books you can read but those that promote acceptance as a cure are all worth their weight in gold.

Anxiety is a learned behaviour which is a good thing because it means it can be reversed by not doing very much at all other than developing a different attitude towards the symptoms of anxiety, depression being one of the most common. It does take a bit of practice to change your attitude to one of acceptance but made easier when you understand what is happening to your mind and body and why and the reason why You should read those books. Knowing this will remove a lot of the fear which is the very thing that causes anxiety. Once fear of the symptoms is lost, recovery is inevitable. I know this from my own experience and if I can recover, you can too.

[Vryt]

I am also suffering from anxiety and depression one a small things can make me depressed i and also i fear a lot about being heart attack or having disease on me but when i visit doctor i dont have any problem sometimes this kinds of fear make like i dont wana live like this and i think my life is worthless and i come out with suicidal thoughts.i dont know i have been like this 1 years ago