Worrying about everything, my dogs in particular

[dmuskett13]

I worry everyday all day typically. Then I go to sleep to worry some more, it is exhausting. There is not a moment in the day where i am not In my head. I am constantly over thinking, or thinking the worst possible scenario in everything I am on a roller coaster ride 24/7. No matter where i am, what i am doing. Smiling or not, i am not fully happy in anyway shape or form. I have 2 dogs that are my world. I think I try to make their lives perfect since I have no control over my own. They go for massages, chiro, "healing touch" get fed the best food and are in perfect health min 2 hours of exercise a day but I make things up in my head that is wrong with them and need to take them to the vet. I feel like I am making their lives worse by worrying about them so much. I leave the house and instantly have a feeling of sickness that something will happen to them while at work (I work 7am to 1 pm). Everything from choking on their toys to the house catching fire, to the gas fire place leaking gas into the house. I literally walk in the house partly expecting there to be 2 dead dogs laying there when I know that all they do is sleep while I am gone. They are only ever alone when I go to work. Otherwise they are with me. I have struggled with anxiety for about 15 years and am now 27. I went on medication a very low dose about 6 months ago. I noticed a huge difference right away but now I feel like its not working as well or I am immune if that is even possible. I lost my dog 6 years ago when he was only 8months old to a horrible accident. He died in my arms, the pain I had/still do have over that accident haunts me. I know that is partly why I am so obsessed with making everything perfect for my 2 dogs now, I don't want to have any regrets but it is back firing. Besides worrying about my dogs, I can't ride passenger is peoples vehicles, even my parents or fiancé's without it being a big deal. I got sick on a bus when I was younger and it was super embarrassing now I still have it stuck in my head "what if I feel sick and have to pull over". It is ridiculous, I know it is but I still can't help myself. Feels good to even write about this stuff.. and it helps knowing your not alone.

[greeneyes2]

Hello there, this makes me feel sad reading this and how bad you are struggling. As a huge animal lover myself, dogs in particular, you adore your dogs and nothing bad will happen to them. As you say you spend all your time with them and they are loved and well looked after. I hope things start getting better for you. I wish you well and the photo of your dogs is lovely x

[dmuskett13 in reply to greeneyes2]

Thank you for your reply, it made me smile

[greeneyes2 in reply to dmuskett13]

Aww that's good to hear! 😊I prefer dogs to most humans!