Dizziness, unbalance, eye floaters, upset stomach, nausea, acid reflux, derealization, wierd head sensations, dropping sensations, ibs, insomnia, weight loss, panic attacks, difficult swallowing, burning sensations in different areas, tingling sensations, sharp headaches, dull headaches, rubber band headaches, ringing ears, sensative to lights and sounds.
I started with this list of all the things I've experienced. There's more but that's what I can remember right now. But I wanted to start here because I wanted everyone on here to see how we are all going through probably the same exact things. From August to December I suffered through this so bad. I didn't know what was going on. I was not accepting this as anxiety which is why it was even worse day by day. Every thing you all are posting I read from time to time, I know exactly how you feel. I cried every single day from September until November, no kidding because I thought I was dying. I couldn't eat, wasn't sleeping. I lost so much weight that it made my anxiety even worse. I thought I had every disease from cancer, to hiv, to brain tumors, you name it. Every sensation I felt I was on Dr Google making my life miserable.
Anyway I'm saying all of this to say, if I can press though this and be to this point I am today. You all can do it. It's a process just like anything in life but we can and will get through it. It does truly start with acceptance. I will say that yes I still have my bad days, where I worry, doubt and am afraid but I conquer my bad days now by continuing to do my usual things in life as I did before I fell into this anxiety depression. A quick fix and tip for now, distract yourself with something you like or something that needs to be done.
Fast forward to today. Things took a turn for the better in November. I'm still learning and growing through this. I'm trying to change my ways of thinking. Which probably help bring me down the road it did. I've always been such a pessimistic person and I must say having bad anxiety and panic attacks (seeing as it makes you think the worst) being a pessimist didn't help my situation one bit. So as I stated I do still have my bad days but now I do have just as much good days as I do bad days and actually learning to keep pushing through my bad days. Im so much better at accepting it. I'm still practicing but it's getting there. I wanted to show you all something. I hope it encourages atleast one person. Right before I went down my path on this anxiety trip, I was trying to start up my company as a sports commentator. This pic you see is a photo shoot I did of me so I could promote my company. Anyway. When june came and I began to spiral down with my anxiety and panic attacks phase, I couldn't really focus on my goals I had for my comapny. I put every thing on holt. In August I stopped working because I didn't know what was happening to me. And that's when I felt I was hitting rock bottom mentally because I was so afraid of death and thinking I was dying. My life mentally spiraled down. However from August til now, I still managed to keep my word on doing a project for my comapany by getting highlights and interviews on sports in my community. I said that to say this. I still mustered up the courage to do some work towards my business even though mentally I wasn't all there. I wanted to show you all a few of my links of me doing some interviews. I want to let you all see how even though I was going through the worst of my anxiety I still got out there. The average person would not be able to tell I was suffering as bad as I did every day. There's one video I had an anxiety and panic attack right as I was headed out there. I cried the whole way there begging God to help me and I'm scared to die. And guess, what, I got right through it. There's another interview you can see I lost so much weight by then. I was at my lowest weight I had ever been in my life. But the average person, well those who didn't know me before, would never know I was so discouraged, I had low self esteem, I hated how I looked but I still pushed through and had fun doing my interviews (key is distraction). And then the other video my anxiety was so bad that day, I literally had to get my daughter to video the games because I felt like I was going to faint, I felt weak from not getting any sleep. I was so nervous to do the interview I thought I was gonna pass out but when it came time to do the interview (a distraction ) I got though it with no problem. I said all of that to say. We CAN and WILL get through this. I know for some if your in the stage I was back 4 months ago i know it's hard and stressful and discouraging but if I can find my way I know you will. Please feel free to ask me any questions. Also click the links and see my videos and see how I was struggling just like many of you but I still somehow got out and tried to push through even when I didn't think I could. Subscribe to my youtube channel to see all my videos and follow my journey. We are in this together. I hope you all enjoy.
(the one I lost so much weight)
(the one I felt weak from getting no sleep and feeling faint)
(the one I had anxiety and panic attack right before I got there and crying the whole way there)