I'm a 30yr old married mother of two boys. I've always led a normal life, and I've always dealt with panic attacks and anxiety. They've never been life altering for me though, I could have one while driving and get rid of it within minutes no problem. All of that changed in November of 2016. I had a massive attack. My heart started beating so hard I could hear it in my ears, my breathing became short, and I thought I was going to pass out. I called an ambulance for myself and went to the hospital with my boys. Their dad was at work at the time out of town. Anyway, the dr sent me home after taking an Ativan and I was okay. For some reason, about a week later, I got worse. I couldn't even leave my house, or go into a store. The attacks were hitting me hard. Fast forward, I went to a Dr and she prescribed me Effexor and something called atarax. It works just like Ativan, only it isn't a dependent and I only take it as needed. I refuse to take any antidepressents. In the past month and a half now, ive gotten to where I can drive only a few minutes from home by myself, and can go anywhere and into any store but only as long as my husband is with me. Otherwise, I can't bring myself to do it.
My head constantly feels heavy, and I just feel ''off''. It feels like my eyes aren't focusing, when in reality, I'm seeing fine. I've had this overwhelming fear of a brain tumor, even though I have no symptoms of one. I can't knock that fear out. I'm not sure what happened to me, and why I can't make this stop so I can go back to normal. I need/desperately want my life back. This has been the hardest experience I've ever been through and I'm just starting to feel totally hopeless. Does it ever go away? Any input would be appreciated, but please, no negative replies 🙏🏻