I rarely get work because I am signed up to a recruitment agency and unless they call with something there's rarely any work going. I have suffered with anxiety and depression on and off for many years. On Tuesday evening I got a call saying that they had work for me for the rest of the week which was great because we've been struggling financially and we need the money. However, then the anxiety set in. I am bad at meeting new people and like to avoid it as much as possible. There were problems with the trains and I also got a bit lost so for my first day, the idea of being late had me in tears and miserable on the platform. but, I DID IT. I got through the first day. Fast-forward to today and I end up calling in sick because I feel so anxious and my fiance suggests that I give up on work, go to the doctors and instead focus on keeping the flat tidy. Now this may seem great, and in some ways it is. Having an understanding fiance is very helpful. But I feel like a complete failure as a person. I never imagined that I'd be so useless and not be able to work. I got an email from the recruiter asking if I'd be in tomorrow and I'm really not sure what to do. Should I go in? I feel as though I should but I know by tomorrow that I'll feel that horrible anxiety again. I just feel so down.
Also I was wondering if I should disclose to them my anxiety?