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[Jodz]

Why is my bloody mind just over thinking , thinking the worst ?? For gods sakes when will this stop ?? Checking my pulse , heart rate on my watch , feeling just terrible like something is going to happen ............I'm just waiting

[mz_rachel]

I know exactly what you mean... right now I'm having a bad anxiety episode that I feel like I'm having a hard time breathing. I'm shaky and nervous and I'm feeling hopeless. I took my med and I'm waiting for it to kick in. I also check my pulse. I do some scratching on my chest to kinda feel that I still exsist or whatever... it sucks soo bad I know. But I'm here going through it right now and you're not alone. Message me back if you want to talk.

Rachel

[Jodz in reply to mz_rachel]

I'm so so sick of it , it's just constant . As soon as I get a pain in my arm I go into panic , I sweat feel sick and think heart attack it's happening now . What tablet do u take to calm you down ?

[susieanna in reply to Jodz]

personally i never check my pulse, i used to years ago, but that was too scary; i do worry if i get palpitations, though again, i sort of know the reason, but it can still send me into an instant panick; i am given very small amounts of valium re calmong down within a few minutes hopefully; also on venlafaxine (but the latter needs to be increased as i dont see any change in my anxiety) I can only suggest breathing techniques/ proper sleep if its possible/ eating healthily; i was told to look into mindfulness; whether that will work or not i dont know.

[Hardluck in reply to susieanna]

I've truly given Mindfullness a shot, 12 week program three hours a week plus an all day retreat. Unfortunately it has not helped. CBT has helped.

[susieanna in reply to Hardluck]

Mmm, a shame re the mindfulness.

[Jodz in reply to Hardluck]

Thanx I must look at that

[Jodz in reply to susieanna]

Thanx for some tips , but breathing does not do a thing for me I have tried it so many times. I sleep really well most nights , have the odd one where I can't . Just the heart thing ATM is really doing my head in

[susieanna in reply to Jodz]

go to your doctor; ask for help.

[Jodz in reply to susieanna]

Been there done that and I'm not going on perm medication as I can not handle the side effects and acting like a zombie . I have prn

[susieanna in reply to Jodz]

A zombie? What meds are you referring to that make you like a zombie? Mine don't make me like a zombie; i would try anything to help re panick attacks and anxiety myself. Re side effects/ or/other affects; maybe change medication?? If you dont want to take it, of course thats fine, some people don't like taking them; but if you can find the right one, it can help. Talking therapy sometimes helps; re almost instant relief, i have to say valium; just small dosage of 5mg helps a little cos it relaxes you. But, they are to be used sparsely as possible.

[Hope4TheBest07 in reply to Jodz]

I feel the same exact way on a daily basis. Its like I'm scared to live life because of all these anxiety symptoms that are breaking me down mentally and physically. And then all these heart issues the celebrities have been having lately isn't making my paranoia better. I constantly check my pulse or think about my heart all the time, I'm always focused on my breathing etc I dont focus on what I'm doing at all. I am focused inward instead of outward. You watch your family and friends having fun or doing simple things and I literally begin to cry smh I sit and cry because my anxiety makes me think all these weird things about something happening. You see all these bad things online that just fuel the anxiety. I have been this way for the past month since the end of November. I've had anxiety since 15 yrs old on and off and I'm 33 going on 34. I have a trip coming up in a few wks if I wasn't dealing with anxiety I would've went with no problem, now since I'm really bad right now I am thinking twice. Its like I'm avoiding life smh I wake up at 11am (because not working right now) and stay in bed until 3-4pm reading anxiety stuff, googling symptoms and just BS'n smh. I try to have fun but the irrational thoughts of my health and weird thoughts intercept my happiness. Not sure if you feel the same? I just feel like I have the worse anxiety in the world smh I was supposed to head to the barbershop but I'm in bed doing this and being sad.... This feeling sucks...

[Jodz in reply to Hope4TheBest07]

Omg Hope4thebesr83 that is me to a T . I just read your post . It just never stops , the worry , the dought ,. I read about someone dying and panic . Checking and re checking pulse and BP , the funny feeling in throat as if heart isn't beating right, so check pulse . Just goes around and around . Avoiding the supermarket of late cause I might pass out as I get all lightheaded and wobbly as ground moving . Yes have my days I'm really down and just cry for no reason. Watching others having fun with no care in the world and I'm sitting there worrying if I'm about to die . Always what if . Aaarrrggg it's such a struggle and is getting worse .... THANKYOU for your story

[Hope4TheBest07 in reply to Jodz]

I 1000% hear you smh its pretty scary. Its like there is so reason to worry but I worry about EVERYTHING. When I hear bad news about someone who's sick I try to find out what the disease is and then I start to worry and think "what if that happens to me?" And I really get depressed really feeling like its gonna happen ANY SECOND. Alan Thicke, George Michael, that mother and daughter all died back to back and that freaked me out! And it just made me paranoid, deep down I know i think too far but its so scary. I look at my child and cry for no reason, I look at my cousins laughing and partying at events and cry inside smh I have so much fear for no reason. Under all this is a lost soul... Idk where to turn I worked so many jobs I've been fired and I quit... I'm 33 and never excelled in anything in life. EVER f'd up in high school went.to summer school, hung out with the wrong crowd in high school and college got expelled from college and get fired or quit jobs. My anxiety and depression f'd me up with a lot of stuff. Once I'm super stressed my body starts shutting down and I start all this anxiety stuff. Its a nightmare 😢😢

[Jodz in reply to Hope4TheBest07]

Omg I'm exactly the same if someone dies I have to know why ? It's crap 😣. A lady in the supermarket collapsed in October and they used the defibulators to save her as she had a massive heart attack , but I had to find out if she had prior heart problems it took me about 3 weeks and since then I have hardly been in a supermarket and when I do I'm waiting to get sweaty , have symptoms then collapse , does my f.... head in . Yep all these people on FB that die . Death scares the crap out of me . Loving you talking to me and sharing thanx .

[Diadem in reply to Hope4TheBest07]

All these stars that passed away are the tip of an ever melting iceberg. I felt this way too but i realised i cant wait for the worst and miss out on life. Like you i got thrown out of school,arrested,did drugs and alcohol but no more.

We have had our fun so now focus on making a change in attitude.

Nightmares cant hurt you.only you can hurt you mentally. Take a breath,smile at your reflection cause you are here alive and well and move forward. You are a champion in your own mind. You can beat it and deep down tou know this.

I dont know you but i believe in you so get well and be happy

[Hope4TheBest07 in reply to Diadem]

Yes you're right, its just the physical symptoms of Anxiety scare the S**t out of me. I literally dont leave my house to hang with friends or family anymore. I go to the doctors, to pick up my wife and daughter and mandatory family functions. I dont have a social life right now. I feel so lost ....

[Kellylou17 in reply to Hope4TheBest07]

I feel that you and I are exactly the same! I am obsessed with symptom checking on google to the point where it completely takes over my life - really I am doing it to make myself feel better and confirm it is just anxiety but I end up googling all sorts of horrors and then convince myself I have them all..

[Hope4TheBest07 in reply to Kellylou17]

Same here smh it sucks. My anxiety comes and goes but I never conquered it without meds. I would take meds then feel better and then when I come off the meds it goes about 9 months and my anxiety comes back. My anxiety starts when things seem impossible and I dont know what to do about my issues so them my body starts acting weird and my mind just starts playing tricks and scaring me smh...

[Diadem in reply to Hope4TheBest07]

My advice is to try what i did.leave the house and run at top speed for a short period pf time.

Scary i know but it won't kill you,nor harm you.what it will do is deplete the adrenaline in your system and calm you when you get back.

You have nothing to lose so give it a go.best of luck and remember,if it turns out you do run and are fine,do it every day and it will help.

[annaj2249 in reply to Hope4TheBest07]

Me all over 🙈

[annaj2249 in reply to mz_rachel]

Same do I get heart palpitations as well??

[Jodz in reply to annaj2249]

Yes the palpitations scare the hell out of me they actually take my breath away . What about u ? Also do you get that funny feeling in throat that makes you check your pulse even more ??

[annaj2249 in reply to Jodz]

Yea that's what makes me even more anxious and also I've noticed that I'm cleaning house etc and i feel ok when I'm running about but when I'm in my quiet times it's overwhelming 🙈

[Carla89 in reply to mz_rachel]

Everything you say is me I been like this a year now and going crazy mum convinced I'm about to die each day I dread going bed I get chest pain foggy head racing heart and out of breath feeling all day I hate it scares me x

[annaj2249 in reply to Carla89]

Same it's hard and I can't wait to go back to the docs that's if I go off course as I'm afraid and it's the 100th appointment but this time I'm def gonna go can't cope Any more 🙈

[Hope4TheBest07 in reply to Carla89]

Exactly, all day my chest flexes like those wrestlers when they jump their chest. My pecs jump and flex in which makes my chest feel tight. Everyday I am scared smh my heart beats fast sometimes but not as much as it used to. If I drink my anxiety gets very bad, the next day after drinking I get veeeeerry depressed and my physical anxiety symptoms are through the roof. Now I can't enjoy a few cocktails without checking my pulse and getting nervous. Smh

[Angep Star]

Hi Jodz, if only we could make it stop this forum wouldn't be here!! You just have to keep looking to find what works for you. I've used hypnosis and recently meditation. Most of the time it works for me but I have times where it dosnt!! The one bit of advice I can give you is as soon as the thought comes into your head the recognise that that's what it is!!! It's a thought that's all. Then distract yourself. Tell yourself your fine, you are well you are happy and your body is strong. Try it over and over again, it does help. 🙏🏻

[Jodz in reply to Angep]

Angep thanx it is hard and I do try to say yer what ever your not going to beat me and it does, but maybe I need to try harder . The mind is such a powerful thing and I believe mine is extra powerful because at times it breaks me .

[susieanna in reply to Angep]

I have often thought about hypnosis for many things, including addictions! but never tried it (maybe too expensive also!) But if i could, i would try it; ahh, there is one thing for total relaxation; shiatsu. I have only ever received it once, free of charge; it was amazing; natural massage; and put me to sleep! Again, there is cost involved though; but if you have the money i would highly recommend it!

[Jodz in reply to susieanna]

Sounds so relaxing mmmm

[susieanna in reply to Jodz]

It really is; if you can afford it, maybe give it ago? You have nothing to lose. x

[Angep Star in reply to susieanna]

There are a lot of free hypnosis apps. So you could give them a try. Some are better than others.my meditation teacher charges £20 for hypnosis!! Some charge much much more but he says it's not about making lots of money but about helping people.hes quite an amazing chap😀

[Jodz in reply to Angep]

Thanx I will look

[Jodz]

Exactly .....thanx . Will have to see where they do it here 👍

[annaj2249]

Same I constantly check my pulse panic and also have an app for it I get an overwhelming feeling of dread feel sick doing my head in I just want to have a good day xx

[kama24]

I so understand how you are feeling.....I too deal with this on an almost daily basis....everything I feel is the worse case scenario!! I actually get angry at myself and the fact I cannot control my own thoughts. Yes, I am on meds, I've taken a CBT class, I try my best to get control. Some days are better than others. At times I find that an Ativan will help me "snap out of it"....only to return the next day, but the benefit from it is much welcomed. I was doing very well up until Nov. 2015 when a medication change caused everything to explode. Here I am a year plus later....still alive as my husband points out....but still dealing. Hang in there....don't give up, you are not alone.

[Sharon51]

I'm exactly the same ,always scanning my body aches pains , lumps, marks. Feel like everyday is a struggle to put on a smile and act like I'm fine ! Most of the time I could just sit and cry always seem to be at doctors , one thing or another so tiring I hate been like this !! I've been having cbt which is good but doesn't take away the what ifs that start filling my head a couple of days later because you do feel more positive after talking to counsellor but the bad thoughts soon come back , and back to the worry, just wish I could get back to being the person I used to be xx

[Jodz in reply to Sharon51]

Sharon51 yep I'm hearing ya , it sux big time . Would love to wake up and feel normal, but the thing is I wouldn't know what normal is . Sick of feeling every little twinge in my body , my heart skipping a beat etc etc , it's a roller coaster that does not know how to stop 😫😫

[Sharon51]

Hi jodz yea from the moment my eyes open its how am I going to be today what if this symptom is serious should I go to doctors definitely not normal but that's all I know just want to be happy hate being like this xx