Hi, I've now wanted to talk about a major part of my anxiety that I feel has impacted my life and has made me become reliant on propranolol.
You see, ever since my anxiety got worse I have developed cardiophobia. I started to become obsessed with my heart and worried non stop about heart attacks and disease. So much that I took more propranolol tablets and became addicted to heart rate apps. Now I no longer use the apps but I feel like the propranolol are what's keeping me stable. And because of that, I no longer feel safe without taking them. I feel like my body and heart are exposed without taking propranolol. Every time I try to live without taking one, I go into a panicked state and my heart shoots up over 150bpm and keeps increasing. It's very scary! Even though I'm 22 and have no signs of heart disease, I can't help but feel that this has put me in danger! I feel like I'm living a totally different life than what I used to when my anxiety wasn't as bad.
Lately I'm on my last line of propranolol and I don't know when I'll get another prescription so I feel like my days are numbered. I have yet to find someone who has taken this seriously. I feel like I have a condition or some type of body awareness that has put me in danger. I know this is not a medical site so I might not get the best answer possible but I really need to know. Is this all just anxiety and can I get over this and be able to live without propranolol? Or am I doomed? Thanks.