So the past couple of weeks I have been having a really hard time with things. I have been in and out of the Er and my doctors office several times. I have had trouble going to the bathroom and struggle every single day with my anxiety over it. This is causing me very much stress and I focus on it all the time. Plus my anxiety has been causing me pains and making my heart race from time to time. Then I start breaking down and crying. I live at home with my gram and pop and my boyfriend and they are all trying to help me. But I don't think they understand me and I get frustrated and even more upset and so do they. Its like im a baby and I tell them all the time that I don't want to be left alone. When my boyfriend is at work all day my gram and pop try their best to make sure they stay at the house with me. I appreciate them so much. Much more than words can describe. This all started with constipation and ever since I heard those words come out of the doctors mouth it has stuck in my mind and makes me very tense. I have been taking medicine for it and it seems like nothing is working. Then at some points I feel better again because I start to see a change and then I start thinking the worse again and start getting all fired back up with my anxiety . The past 2 days I wake up in the morning and feel like i can't breathe or that the life has been sucked out of me. I haven't been to work in over a week because of this. My nerves are shot from this. Today i broke down and took one of my anxiety pills ( I never take them and normally deal with my aniexty myself) but anyways I finally took one and felt so calm about things.. And I started to realize things could be much worse for me.. That I really do need to calm down and just take it day by day and know I have the support that I need. With that being said.. Any suggestions on what else I could do? Thought maybe going to the gym for some exercise in the morning might help me. With my constipation and my anxiety . I also have been freaking out about every little thing that happens to me. Even if its as simple as my head hurting.. I still think the worst in everything. I would really apperciate some feedback on any of this... What helps you.. Or what puts your mind at ease..
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