Help...

Sorry I haven't posted in a while guys, I've been busy and had a lot going on. As most of you know I've been in hospital recovering from a suicide attempt that I attempted infront of my boyfriend (at the time), I was under the influence of alcohol and was on anxiety / depression tablets. My boyfriend came to the hospital with me and supported me, however, he has his own mental health problems too, however, two days after I was out of hospital he decided to end our relationship due to his own problems. He couldn't deal with the pressure anymore. Now, I am only 17, but... Me and my ex boyfriend met three years ago, we have everything in common, we have been through the exact same problems and that is why I'm still holding on thinking it's meant to be. However, we split and gave it a few days and he kept telling me he wanted me back then one minute changing his mind, I had enough so I told him that I was leaving and it wasn't fair him leading me on like this, so, this scared him and he came back... We agreed to take it slow and ease ourselves back into the relationship. However last night we had an argument, I told him that if he wanted to go he should go now and he left. He told me that he's fallen out of love with me but that exact same day he was saying that he loved me and couldn't believe he nearly lost the girl of his dreams?! My ex boyfriend was everything to me and I know this isn't some 'high school romance' - this is serious. It was like I met the male version of me, we've both said that we are going to try and move on from this and if he misses me and wants to get back with me he will contact me. But I have no idea what to do. Why should I try to move on when I think this is meant to be, why should I move on when I can just wait for him to come back? My heart is broken. I feel numb, empty and lost. Things have never ever been this bad. I hope he comes back.... Can anyone help? I'm going to give him space and time to see if he will miss me but I think there's too much water under the bridge please someone, help? Have you got any advice?

[Claire12345]

Ano it's hard but try and focus on getting better yourself and him also... That way youz can both have a postive mind together ! Chin up anyways and hope ever think works out ok

[Hidden]

How can we have so much in common but not meant to be?

[Claire12345 in reply to Hidden]

I'm a great belive in things happen for reasons... Mebbies ment to break up and both focus on yourself to get better?

[Hidden]

Yeah. Maybe we met three years ago and have a lot in common to show us that not everything is meant to be... Who knows. Will time tell?

[Claire12345]

Yeh deffo time will tell ! Cause faith will bring youz bk together if it's meant to be... In the mean time concentrate on getting your self Betta x

[Agora1]

mk09, I didn't know you were in the hospital recently. My advice to you would be to make sure you contact your therapist for the emotional support you will need during this time. You are still fragile. The hurt is still fresh. I think your mind is saying one thing and your heart another. Talk out your feelings to your therapist about feeling numb, empty and lost. Love is one of the hardest emotions to go through. We are also here for support. Everyone cares, you are not alone. Stay safe. xx

[Malteselover]

My advice is make sure you are getting counseling for your problems first & get yourself stable. You need to take care of yourself and become a strong person with possitive outlook. We can't change other people & you can't let it pull you down. You have too much exciting life to live!!