Did I bite off more than I can chew?

[Ejm0316]

So I had dealt with depression since I was young but never anxiety and three days ago after work all of a sudden I felt as of I was overdosin or something. My heart was beating way too fast I couldn't breathe I has hot then cold, couldn't feel my limbs, and was very dizzy and felt as if I was going to pass out. I thought someone put something in my food or something, I took a cold shower to try and tried to throw up I seriously thought I was going to dies that night.... I don't like medication since when I was small I took it and got sick I started smoking weed to calm my nerves and not feel depressed I also smoked cigarettes and what not. Well after this experience i havent felt the same I was so scared that I quit smoking cigs, weed, eating fast food, drinking caffeine, and entirely changed my which is all good but I'm still scared it's been 3 days and I still feel very weird but now on top of it all I'm having withdrawal from cigs and getting very angry which is sparking more panic attacks and I don't know what to do... I don't wanna get weed because I can't be sure I will get an indica (which is good for anxiety) and I'm afraid of getting a sativa strain (which elevates heart rate which works well for depression but not anxiety) so much change is making me anxious too but I know it's for the best. I'm going to a doctor today to see what I can do for now but I don't know if im doing too much and should take it slow or if I'm doing the right thing... I feel overwhelmed with everything...

[_Reba_]

I've had an anxiety attack just like that. Feeling dizzy, numbness and of course the increase in heart rate. It's all part of an anxiety attack, which sucks.

It's good to hear you stopped smoking cigarettes and weed. Also changing to a healthier diet. It's normal to have withdrawal symptoms and they will eventually stop.

The changes you have made are for the best. These changes will of course have an impact on you and your body. Just know it's for the better

I hope that trip to the doctors will help, take care.

[Ejm0316 in reply to _Reba_]

I went to the doc and he gave me 2 scripts one for citalopram and another for LORAZEPAM but honestly I'm kinda scared I read the paprework that came with the medicine and the potential side effects don't sound far from what I'm already experiencing my muscles in my chest have been very tight as well and I don't know if that's normal because of the stress or what and for some reason I find myself wanting to constantly be away from my house and with my family... it's been a 3 days in a row now and I have this feeling they are tired of it... I'm sticking to my guns on cigs and healthy eating choices ect. But I'm still very scared confused and worried. I need to be able to be home and ok with it and I go back to work 2marro but I don't know if im ready yet. I've never takin these meds if you have can you re assure me that they are ok...

[_Reba_ in reply to Ejm0316]

I am only 16 so I refuse to be put on medication. Almost everything has side effects and I know these have pretty bad ones.

I get a tight chest too and anxiety can cause this.

I'm sure your family are not tired of it There is nothing wrong with wanting to be there with them.

Maybe try talking to someone who has taken these? Sorry that I'm not much help.

[Ejm0316 in reply to _Reba_]

No its fine thanks for the reply and that's great if you don't need the med dont take them that's a huge step in the right direction

[_Reba_ in reply to Ejm0316]

Some doctors have suggested it but they always say I'm too young to be on medication. I just keep fighting and hopefully it'll get better

I wish you the best.

[Ejm0316 in reply to _Reba_]

Well thank you and good luck on your journey as well!

[_Reba_ in reply to Ejm0316]

Thanks