Hi there, I'm new to this so please bear with me. I've been taking anti depressants for over 15 years now, mostly for anxiety but also for depression. I've just started a very short college course which involves me going on placements, and so far I've made it in for the first day of the first placement and nothing since. I'm hiding in my flat, too scared to phone the college and explain what's going on. I've lost countless jobs over the years; my anxiety seems to stem from when I started a new job and felt completely out of my depth. Ever since I have either started jobs but been off sick pretty much straight away, or haven't made my first day at all. I know what I should do, as everyone keeps telling me - exercise, take up a hobby, spend time with people, but I just can't find the impetus to do any of it. This course was my chance to turn things around, try a new career and I've messed it up again by not going on placement. It isn't even paid either, so it's not like an actual job, so I don't know what my problem is!! I'm taking fluoxetine just now but I don't know if I've been taking things for so long they just don't work anymore. When I stay off I end up feeling a million times worse, I can't eat, my arms feel all tense and weird and I cry at the drop of a hat. Why would it do this if it makes me feel worse???? I'm worried about my future, my ability to hold down a job. If anyone has any thoughts I would love to hear them. Thanks for your time.