Hi I'm a 36 year old female and I am a hypochondriac. Not only do I have a lot of physical and emotional symptoms I'm just as terrified to know what is causing them I hate doctors. I have been having some worrisome symptoms that I am contributing to diabetes. I took a beta blocker called infernal for about the years and gained a lot of weight I developed a dark rash under my arm pits, groin, knees and knuckles while I was pregnant. I was told it was nothing. Years later I was tested for diabetes which was two years ago and it was negative. I didn't mention the rash at the time. Since then I have weined myself off of the infernal and lost 30 pounds doing so. The rash on my groin disappeared and under my arms has lightened my knuckle r as dark as ever though. I have had bouts of bv infections and bladder infections. Thread months ago I took a medication for the bv infection and developed oral thrush. I am so concerned that it means I am diabetic. I am terrified to go to the doctor in the fear that I will be diagnosed with diabetes. I have 4 children my oldest is 16 and my youngest is 7 I don't want to die and leave them without a mother that is my biggest concern but finding out that I am diabetic I am afraid that I will go into a deep depression or a panic episode that I won't be able to handle. I have constant severe anxiety that takes over my life. Sorry about the long story but I need to get it out. Any advise? Is there anyone going through any similar problems?