I am convinced I have parkinsons or ALS

[ratgirl11]

I am so scared. I am a recently divorced single mom and responsible for my home, had to pay out 300K to the ex and I have 2 teen daughters. My house flooded and had to move out in the middle of a divorce.

I am convinced I have Parkinson's disease. I have all the symptoms and I am terrified. the MRI came back normal but MRI don't pick up Parkinson's only MS. 10 years ago I was told I had familial tremors which are when your head shakes when stressed. I have always had it. Shaking is a sign of Parkinson's sometimes. They say excessive stress can make things worse and kill cells in the brain to get Parkinson's. My GP ran blood work, MRI and all normal. He still referred me to a neurologist and now I am TERRIFIED.

I have to go to a neurologist next week and I am terrified that he will tell me I have early Parkinson's or ALS. I have most of the symptoms, stiff neck, raspy voice, pronouncing words wrong, leg and finger twitching sometimes, all of the left side of body tight. I have pins and needles feeling all over the body. numb toes sometimes im truly convinced I have Parkinson's, I believe I do 100% and I am terrified of leaving my kids with my ex. they see him 50% but I want to be there for them for the next 40 years and see them grow up. I am so scared, sad nervous beyond words does any of this sound familiar?

[shadow45]

Hello. It sounds like you have been under tremendous stress. We know that stress can create many different symptoms. If you have had some underlying illness in the past. That have some similarities to what you are experiencing now. You may be experiencing a wave of paranoia in convincing yourself you have Parkinson`s. Try and talk yourself out of that way of thinking. Don`t try to self diagnose.. wait until you go through all the tests. But most of all THINK POSITIVE THOUGHTS. Time heals all wounds. Hang in there. You will be fine.

Steve

[ratgirl11 in reply to shadow45]

Thanks so much for the support. I really need it! All I think about is the worst news the specialist will tell me. All the research I read links my past tremors to future Parkinsons but not in all cases. that is what is really worrying me. I can barely function day to day and I want to sleep all day, I don't want to do stuff just want to be in bed and think of the future for my kids.

[shadow45 in reply to ratgirl11]

Well that sounds 'normal' (the wanting to sleep all day) If I can use that word. Lord knows how upsetting Divorce can be. Even under the best condition its tough. You know if we try hard enough we can bring on all manner of health issues. Not to say that your pathology does not indicate prior health issues.

But as you may have been told before stress is a savage beast... It plays with our self conscious and can fool the Brain into thinking all manner negative thoughts. Try to manifest the best path for yourself... What you want to happen.... not what your think will happen.

Keep in touch if you feel the need to talk.

Much Love.

Steve

[ratgirl11 in reply to shadow45]

Thanks so much!!!!!! I feel when I keep busy alot of symptoms go away. Still have tingling hands and feet but not as much. I have a history of severe anxiety , no surprise at all.

I am trying to keep busy before my Oct 18th neurology appt. There is nothing i can do about any diagnosis at this pt.

[shadow45 in reply to ratgirl11]

Busy is good I know what feeling alone is like even though we are not. Talking is good... Busy is good.. Keep those negative thoughts away.... see them as the enemy... Or a rude person at Tesco .. Something to be shunned and ignored.... If your a comedy fan watch a lot of funny shows.. Anxiety will ebb and flow like the tide ..But if we know when its coming (we can turn it down) just by thinking positively..

Take care be safe.

Steve

[Imanoverthinker]

how did the appointment go is all well?