I took the rest of the week off Monday, and yesterday I had a low point. I had given up, I felt like I was going to just drop and after everything, I just gave up.
Well something amazing happened. I was pushed to my limits, I said, "This is it, God. Do what you want, because I'm done."
I got a small workout in last night after that. I just walked around and thought about other things. I thought about just how this is all fight or flight, well since this is purely emotional.. let's fight!
This might sound crazy, but I pumped myself up. I walked around and was daring the fear to make me faint. I was daring the anxiety to stop me and I literally stopped fearing it. Something clicked and I'm not scared anymore. I literally feel normal for the first time in a few months.
Since I had the rest of the week off, I went and helped my dad build a house in town today and I would feel slightly off at times, but it was fleeting.
I had a GREAT day today and a great night last night!
Give up tonight and trust fall into God's arms.
I feel excellent!!