I have had a rough few days. I didn't sleep well last night and today I woke up angry, bitter and of course anxious. I started to take an Ativan, call into work, and let my kids miss school. Instead I pushed through..I have my first CBT appointment today ( it takes over 1 hour for me to drive there) I'm anxious about the drive, my throat still feels swollen (since Monday night) I feel alone, my husband does "okay" with supporting me but not what I truly long for, my sister acts like I'm contagious, my mom thinks I'm weak and I have no one else. Today, I'm on the verge of tears today. I question, " why me", " why can't I be normal", " is this really how the rest of my life is going to be"???