So,I posted a lot lately on this site and I just want some information. Even if Ive been on this anxiety road for almost 9 years,I still cant calm myself. So,I went to the doctor and she gave me blood tests and thyroid tests and urine test. They will arrive this day ,but later. My biggest concern is this feeling that Im not real,that I might be dreaming and nothing,not even people,or me is real. I researched it,its called derealization or depersonalization. Ive had this before,but not for a very long time. Now I had this almost everyday,sometimes i didnt,for the last 2 weeks. I have to admit that I stressed a lot. Never been stressed like this. I made the mistake to search it on my native language,wich is romanian and I found a boy who feels the same and someone told him that maybe because his grandma killed herself,maybe he is having a mental illness in development. He felt exactly like I do and to see someone telling him that he might be mentally ill ( schizophrenia kind of ill),spiked me a lot. There were others that commented they had psychotic episodes and I got really scared. Can I be mentally ill? Ive never had hallucinations,I only have these derealization/depersonalization feelings in wich I question if its real or not,even if I KNOW its real. I dont have trouble speaking,I do perform like a normal kid at school,I sometimes forget some things,but thats just because I lack a lot of sleep and I have emotions as well. I also read that schizophrenic people dont involve in social activity. I must say,for 2-3 weeks I dont really feel like talking because all I can think of is that Im crazy or I might die. I lost my appetite to talk. Even with my bf,I just lost my desire to kiss him and he started to notice and I explained that he shouldnt worry. Am I crazy? Am I alone? Do I have a chance to be normal again? Am I schizophrenic? What should I do?