Im A Bit Afraid, Can Someone Help? Im New Here...

[MariMari19]

Hi everyone, Ive had GAD and Agoraphobia for 5 years now, But now things have gotten really bad as I've started to develop Health Anxiety, which can be super scary.

It started with me googling symptoms of Ovarian Cancer one day, and the symptoms so vague, I felt i had it, I began to stress about every little pain in my abdomen but when my period came, i ruled it out to that, except after my period the pain remained, I began to be anxious again constantly checking for bloating, and other symptoms, I began to picture my funeral leaving my mom and sister, and my amazing boyfriend behind especially as Im just starting to taste life (I just  turned 18).  I became depressed and now paranoid about this. One thing led to another and I ended up in the Emergency Room because of what i thought was bloating, on CT scan later and they found nothing. This relieved me until it came time for my next period to come (my last period was March 22) and here I sit today and still nothing, but Im having cramps and nausea, and bloating,. I think they might have missed something in the CT  and after prodding and probing my abdomen i found a tiny what feels like a lump  underneath my belly button to the left side. I scheduled an appointment to the OBGYN but its not until the 18 , Im afraid it might be something serious, that I am truly Dying, this is really interfering with my life, I don't go to school, I just sit here and read stories of how people experienced the same things before they were diagnosed with cancer.

Could someone talk me down? Help me feel a bit better? 

Thank You 

[Jayde_96]

Hey there I too suffer health anxiety and I to began with GAD. Always been a worrier. The problem with health anxiety is that no matter how many test we have we will always worry that they have missed something. I'm 19 years old and female and have experienced all kinds of symptoms that I will then look up and try to self diagnose, so I know the struggle.

Now I can tell you that within this year I have thought I have ....

Skin cancer, heart desease, cervical cancer, ovarian cancer, and many other diseases. 

A doctor will do scans and blood tests and if they come back all ok then you are fine it's so highly highly rare that things get missed. 

Also if your the kind of person that's always seeking medical advice it's very unlikely that anything will be missed. 

I'm sure you are ok you have been checked, and you are 18... Your growing, your body is changing, you will experience many different things but that doesn't mean it's serious. Try not to worry too much sweet, it will be ok.  

[MariMari19 in reply to Jayde_96]

Thank You so much for your reply, i feel a bit better

[Agora1]

Hi MariMari,  I too have GAD and Agoraphobia for the last 6 years.  The Health Anxiety was all the years before that.  I believe it started when I was your age.  Going from doctor to doctor worrying about everything possible that could happen  UNTIL  one day, a doctor told me "you are not going to be happy until I cut you open and do an exploratory".  Whoa, that woke me up fast.  From that time on, I just went for my regular physicals or when sick with the flu.  I seemed to be cured of the health anxiety. Then for the next 7 years, it felt so good not running to the doctor with every little imagined disease, that I didn't see a doctor for those 7 years.  Not a good idea, but I felt so good and lucked out in not getting sick.  What there needs to be is something in between making ourselves sick with worry about our health and not being seen by any physician for a long time.   Having had a CT scan of your abdomen is a pretty significant and reliable test.  Keep your appointment with your OBG for the 18th and until then try not to worry since your scan was normal.  Take care  xx