I just want to make it through this night!

[kimberly434]

Two days I have done wonderful....and now the monster is back. There has to be something that we can do...someone that can help. I hate it so much. I just need someone to talk to or someone that understands.

[xoxox]

I completely understand you. Im fine for a few hours, then it come back. I also want to live a normal life, except I can't. I don't know how to control anxiety. But I'm always here if you need to talk with someone.

[kimberly434 in reply to xoxox]

Thank you. It seems to help when I have someone to talk to about it. Especially someone that understands how it feels. Even if I start to get a slight headache I go straight into panic mode thinking the worst...because I rarely get headaches. Are you like that? I won't even travel out of town because I am too scared to far away from a hospital. Is that weird?

[xoxox in reply to kimberly434]

No it is not weird. I also don't want to go to school because I think that I might have a panic attack there and people will think like I'm crazy and all. But i'm also like you. Once I start to get a painful feeling, I start to get all jumpy and paranoid thinking that there is something wrong. Like once I start to feel pain on the left side of my chest, I intsntly think that I have some sort of heart disease. Like a month back, I started to have slight symptoms of a heart attack, pain on the left side of my chest, felt like I was losing a lot if oxygen and dizzy, but searched up anxiety symptoms and they were completely different from the ones of a heart attack since you can actually hear your heart beat when your having a panic attack and you fear like you are losing control. 

[kimberly434 in reply to xoxox]

I know how you feel about school...I get scared when I have to go to work. I always wonder what will people think if I have a panic attack. It is really hard dealing with this stuff and not knowing when it's going to happen.

[xoxox in reply to kimberly434]

Yeah I feel you. Just yesterday we had to take a test, its a state one to be specific. And I sat there in my chair, my breathing started to become a problem and my throat felt as if it was getting tighter and tighter. I could have gone to the nurses office and ask for my inhaler but I doubt that I would be able to finish taking the test. And there is also one coming up on Friday.

[kimberly434 in reply to xoxox]

think positive...you can do it! Good luck on your test Friday.

[loglegmomma in reply to kimberly434]

I work at a hospital & live 2 miles away.  More than once recently when I was out of town I searched for closest hospitals in case I needed one.  Once I even texted the map to my husband.

[lparkinson]

I know exactly how u feel it's horrible living in fear 

[Natsteveo]

It's a horrible feeling I've had my health anxiety rear its ugly head again I've watched my mum die 9 years ago to pancreatic cancer so every pain I have I automatically think if got it and go into total meltdown my uncle has just been diagnosed with leukaemia so I think this is my trigger and the fact that I've got a kidney infection has spiralled my thinking out of control so I know how u feel it's having to battle with ursel wen it happens I learnt at cbt therapy fear is a thought it a action xx

[kimberly434 in reply to Natsteveo]

did that cbt therapy help you?

[Stan_K]

I undesrtand exactly what everyone is saying. I had a week where everything went great. I exercised at the park with other people, went out to eat and don't give my thoughts any power, got stuck in traffic with horns blowing from all directions, and had to drive home in severe weather. No instances of panic and anxiety ever occurred. Two days ago, I was sitting down watching television and I started feeling these chest pains that went in and out with maybe 5 minutes in between(nothing overly painful), but as you all know anxiety amp!ifies almost everything smh. Now, I can't stop the What-If thoughts from racing. Its good to know that others are in the same boat as you. 

[madametobacco49]

Kim--nothing you go through is unheard of on this site or is weird--and we want to talk to you--because just like when you talk and it helps you it helps us stay clean too--So no worries--We all care and want you to succeed--Love MmeT