To be honest, I am not sure if I am alexithymic anymore. What if I am just so numb? Or, I'm a sociopath who can't control himself... I honestly don't know. My biggest problem is telling someone I love them because I don't feel "love", so, for example, if I tell my mother I love her, I would feel like I am lying, so I get this weird pressure on my temporal lobes and it makes me think that I am, indeed, lying. Love, is an obscured sentiment. But, what if I'm just so numb? I don't know. I am sorry if this post is annoying.