I can't stand going into breakdown mode everytime something happens During the last few months ive convinced myself that my husband had melanoma, my son a brain tumour and my daughter bone cancer...and today my sister lymphoma!! These are all based on the flimsiest of evidence but at the time there seems no other conclusion. After i'd been feeling well for a few weeks, my heavily pregnant sister had a lymph node/gland just suddenly swell up in her neck this afternoon and I go into instant meltdown
I totally hate being like this....it's terrifying
She's just had a massive boil lanced and the logic is that it's some infection related to that....but my brain won't accept this logic.
How do others deal with thinking that loved ones are dying?? I experienced knowing my dad would die and this feels the same everytime....its so emotionally draining
Thanks for listening xx
Matildea, we know too much about medical issues that drive us to pre-diagnose everyone around us including ourselves. It is emotional draining. On lesser issues, I have been right before even taking my daughter or son to hospital when they were little. That's how it all started. I began to think that I knew the symptoms and answers to their medical issues. When that happens, then you start to doubt the doctors who are qualified and trained. Not only do we do an injustice to ourselves but also our
family members by making them worry unnecessarily. The best thing we can do now is to keep our diagnosis to ourselves and pray they don't know what they possibly may be facing.