I hate my life. 20 years of an...

[Thecureisinyou]

I hate my life. 20 years of anxiety. When does it end. I want to be normal. Tired of the pills. Blah good night.

[anne1964]

Hi... Sorry that you feel like this , its crap eh??

I felt like this for a long time, suffered with anxiety for over 20 years at varying levels. I had a breakdown Oct 2013, but slowly ive recovered. Ive had to look at my life and try to resolve my issues, ive had to rebuild my life (after being away from home for two years in a relationship)... I had to start all over again, no friends, no job,no money.. hence the breakdown..

But i now feel like Im getting my life back, and its not so bad. Im single and cant see that changing but Im happy with that. I have my family, have reconciled with my son and lifes good. I now volunteer and theyve just told me theyre planning on getting funding to properly pay me...

So lifes good...

I guess what Im trying to say, is in my darkest hour when id lost hope , I never thought id have a life, or enjoy life again.... but im getting there now!!

Keep hoping, keep trying for the life that you want, and remember depression is a liar and makes you think everything is rubbish; but its not!!

Take care.... and lots of love xx

[Thecureisinyou in reply to anne1964]

Thanks I appreciate your kind words.

[Agora1]

Hi, living with long time anxiety is very draining to say the least. I know the feeling of wanting it to end and feel normal again. As for taking pills, I stopped over a year ago with the benzos. Only on Lexapro now. We shouldn't have to live like this. I do hope

that today is a little better than yesterday. Thinking of you because I care.

[Thecureisinyou in reply to Agora1]

Thanks. I also take Lexapro. Everyday is different from the day before so all I can do is take it day by day but most days latley have been good. Thank you for care caring. Im here of you ever need someone to listen.

[Cymro14 in reply to Agora1]

Well done getting off the Benzos. I still take Diazepans for the tinnitus anxiety.

[Cymro14]

What's wrong mate. Why u anxious. I have tinnitus 24/7. Thst makes me anxious. Have to take Diazepan which is useless! Why u so low ?

[funkygypsy]

i know the feeling ive had about the same too it really is like blah cant even be bothered talking about it anymore ..........aye