I want my life back!!!

I'm 37 years old and I had my first panic attack 3 years ago and everything has gone down hill from there. Every ache or pain I get I think I'm dying. My dad passed away from heart complications so from then on I'm always thinking I'm going to have a heart attack. I can't sleep, I barely eat, and work is very hard at this point. Im afraid to go to the Dr in fear of them telling me something I don't want to hear! I suffer from hypertension and that's the only thing I see my Dr. for. I've had other test done but I still feel so hopeless and afraid! I've become a recluse.

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  • Hun...I am so sorry your feeling this way. Try to stay positive. A lot of us on this site know exactly what you are dealing with...it's not easy, but talking about it on this site really does help. Just take it one day at a time.

  • Thank u it really does help, this is a serious thing we're fighting here and its a struggle! I hope we all find our peace and comfort!! XOXO

  • Hi Anxietytroll I'm exactly the same babe I lost my mum to pancreatic cancer 9 years ago and every pain I get I think I'm dying too.. Like for a week almst I've had a bad kidney infection that's eased but I've got this horrid pain in my back so now I think I've got what my mum had!!! I darent go docs either in fear of bad news I just want my life back too don't feel like me at all just lately xxxx

  • I totally understand that's why I'm on this sight I love sharing my story and listening to others it really helps. I know there's light at the end of this tunnel! 

  • I won't go to Doctors either, afraid of all the tests and of what the test results might be. Plus being an Agoraphobic I can't go have all these tests, I have a hard time just making it to the grocery store.  :( 

  • I went to the doctor a couple weeks ago, they did blood test, and all came back normal.  I smoke, and have no signs of Lung cancer, but now they want me to go get a Low Dose CT scan, and that gives me more anxiety.  Don't want to do that, in fear of what they might find.

  • Just try to think positive as if that's easy😩 . Think happy thoughts as your having your text done. My method is when Im being tested for anything I say a prayer and try to come to terms with how I will process any info they give me. Hang in there ,there is hope!!

  • I go to the doctors like crazy & have been through so many tests.... but not many answers.  I guess I keep hoping the next one will find the answer!

  • I feel the same way anxietytroll.  My doctor wants me to get a low does CT scan, because I smoke, even though I have no signs of lung cancer.  Afraid of this, cause I am afraid they will find lung cancer. Just don't know what to do.

  • I went to the Dr. About a month ago. They did blood work and every thing comeback normal. But now I think I'm dying from all my chest problems. I get a dull feeling that comes and goes. I also get a warm sensation on my upper chest that actually looks red, that comes and goes also. I only sleep about two hours a night and can't go back to sleep. I feel the same way you do. Don't go to the doctor in fear of something being wrong with me. This is all a nightmare. 

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