Close to the edge.....

[Roserose]

The only thing keeping me here right now is Chris... I am too scared to battle on, I know I want to be here, but this sint a life... and I just cant see past it right now. My other half works away and he is away for a few days but even that is too hard, next time he leaves will be for 4 weeks and I can't face it like this.

[Hidden]

Hello. I am sorry you are feeling so bad. You sound very distressed and without much hope for the future. Is that because of the symptoms caused by your anxiety? If we are in constant pain of any kind it can lead to depression. I wonder if you feel able to go and talk with your doctor about things. Maybe you need some help with medication at the moment. Normally I dont have much time for medication - but I accept that there are times when it becomes necessary for some people.

I am not sure if you are in therapy - but that is also something that will help, even if thats a longer term treatment.

It just sounds to me like you are depressed - as well as having to deal with the anxiety. Your doctor should be able to help you with that. I hope things improve for you soon.

Karl

[Roserose in reply to Hidden]

Hi Karl, Im sorry, for some reason I seem to have completely missed your reply. YES my anxiety is certainly causing depression. It is horrible, especially as it has stripped me of my true character, a fun, loving, passionate person who wants to achieve so many things and help others in life.

I have got an asessment with the doctor next week. and I have an EMDR therapy session tomorrow...

I am also on meds as I couldn't cope when I had PTSD....

it's all fun and games at the moment, but without the fun!!

Rose

[Hidden in reply to Roserose]

Well good news about the assessment at least - not to mention the continuing therapy. Unfortunately,therapy can take time before any results are seen and felt, so you will need to draw on whatever inner reserves of strength you have left to keep going with a positive outlook. Take heart from the many friends you have in this group who wish you well. You WILL get the real you back again my friend.

Karl

[Roserose in reply to Hidden]

Thanks you Karl, I truely hope so.

Rose

[Hidden]

Hello

Sorry you are still struggling the increase in meds has not helped ?

You really need to contact your Doctor there is so much more they can do , I would not hesitate in phoning and even saying this is an emergency

Maybe it could be a possibility that you could stay at your parents or a friends maybe while Chris is away ?

Hopefully if you contact your GP today they will give you some support and by the time he is away again you will be feeling a lot better

Take Care x

[Roserose in reply to Hidden]

No not better but i spoke to my GP today and they said to persist with the meds... they say it could be that the increase makes me worse before better?! I have been on the phone to many people today.... including the crisis support team.... Im exhausted and I cant be arsed any more.... Thank you for replying once again bounce x

[Hidden in reply to Roserose]

O Rose I am sorry , were the support team no good ?

If things get really bad take yourself to A&E !

[Roserose in reply to Hidden]

What can they do?!?!

the support team were really sweet, the girl hannah I spoke to was so lovely xx

[Hidden in reply to Roserose]

Well Rose they might get a Doctor to look at you and maybe assess you , it is just if we get where we feel we are so on the edge it can be helpful

Use the support team again if you need them and let's hope these meds start working soon x

[Roserose in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Bounce! you are a true gem on here xxx

[Twinkle333 in reply to Roserose]

Have you heard of the crisis house hun? It's a place you can go for a week for some rest bite there is staff 24/7 and it's just to get away from the hassles in life I've been in there myself and really it helped me I was bed bound before and was having 20 or so panic attacks a day I wouldnt leave my bedroom only to use the bath room and since the crisis house I at least can get through the day with maybe 5 attacks now honest hun there's light at the end of this very long tunnel xxx

[Roserose in reply to Twinkle333]

where is the crisis house lovely? xx

[Twinkle333 in reply to Roserose]

Oh it's at nether edge Sheffield hun it's a lovely calming environment where you feel very safe xx

[Lizbett]

Rose, I don't know what has triggered this but you can get through this okay? For now, this instant in time, focus ONLY on getting through this episode.

After that, I urge you to see your GP for a short course of meds to help you.

From memory, your living arrangements are less than optimal and are in all like likelihood contributing to your anxiety.

So then, a short course of meds; start doing some problem solving to each and every issue you have. Look to finding some place to live othet than where you are.

There is *something* that is causing this. There always is. It seems to me that you've been chronically stressed. Your stress has now turned into chronic anxiety. Don't let yourself spiral into a depression that will be even harder to get out of. Please ACT NOW.

Believe it or not, there IS hope and a possibility for a better, happier and healthier life. If you feel better when Chris is around, then that alone should tell you something. Look to all possible options involving a new place to live. A place of your own where you'll be able to freely move around and breathe.

[Roserose in reply to Lizbett]

Hi Lizbett, I have moved into my own house now with Chris.... and I am worse than ever... I am now in depression.... I am consumed by both very badly. If there is hope, I hope it shows itself soon. xx

[Roserose]

Hi Tanya, no not good.... dont know if it is the increase in meds but I am sooooooooo anxious!!!!! another day in hell xxx