Great day to start the year..

Today was a really good day felt weird but didn't let it get me down had fun with my girlfriend , went to the gym and trained jiu-jitsu, I've been pretty positive the whole day but right now my sides bothering me and I'm trying too enjoy netflix, my left side has been hurting for like 7 months and I've done 7 different blood tests for different things all came back good nothing was wrong, but the pain still hasn't gone away and it hurts when I breath in or turn to my left side and I'm just scared if it will affect my heart cause now the pain feels like its hurting it, but I just had a ultrasound and saw a cardiologist like couple months ago and everything was good so idk why I'm freaking out , my doctor said it could be inflammation or muscle tension buts its just bothering me so much right now and I just need someone too talk too I know I posted about my side before but idk what too do :/

[veganese]

Hi Dameinlee,

Sounds muscular. Have you seen a physio? If your practising a martial art, it's possibly from training. Please don't worry when your doing so well in managing your anxiety.

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Thank you for the support I appreciate it so much when I talk too my loved ones I feel bad cause I don't wanna burden them they support me but it's nice to come on here and vent.. But yeah my doctor said it sounded muscular to her too but I get weird symptoms too like naesuted , fatigued and just feel weird sometimes my heart doesn't race like it use to I use too have palpitations but ever since I saw the cardiologist and he told me I was fine I haven't had any, and I know when you have panic or anxiety your heart beats face so I'm freakin myself out that it isn't anxiety and it's something else , I'm taking paxil too and it's been helping me tremendously I just want my side pain to go away and I feel like I could fight my anxiety better..

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I understand about the talking to the family. Mine are sick of hearing about my dizziness and balance problems - these are the symptoms most annoying for me. I feel I have to explain why I have difficulty doing this or that - even taking the dogs for a walk is tricky. Like you, at times, I wonder is it something else and not anxiety. But it is anxiety and I think that the symptoms we most fear are the ones that stay with us - making us fearful. Vicious circle. I get very tired, too, but it's all the worrying (tired mind) and tension. I had bouts of nausea a few weeks back. Our bodies and minds are working hard when what they really need is rest and respite. Acceptance I think is the way and enough time to let our bodies heal. We are courageous people, though we don't feel it.

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Hi

After all those tests you have had done I am sure there cant be anything wrong or they would have picked it up , it does sound that it could be your muscles through your hobby

you do

I know it isnt easy when you have HA as I suffer but try & trust the doctors , they are medically trained & you have to keep telling yourself that when the fear rushes through your mind

Are you getting any help with your anxiety in general ?

I wold ask your GP about that if you haven't already , I think it would be a big help , keep talking on here as well as it helps to no you are not alone & people understand

Love

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xxx

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I just get scared like what if I have something that they didn't catch or there not doing the right test for whatever I have and I accept I have anxiety and panic it's just when I get these weird symptoms out of nowhere when I'm perfectly find I freak out and think I'm dieing from. Something like I thinky side pain is killing me and what if one day it's cancer or somethin... I did have anxiety group therapy but they discontinued it and I'm kinda sad about it cause I talked to people face to face that had similar or worst things and I felt like I wasn't alone, I wanna go back to my doctor but I'm scared like what if I have something terminal...idk I'm feeling weird right now

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