Yesterday i didn't attend another job.. when will this end! I can't get a job because I'm really good in the interviews as i know they only last approx 30 mins, So i get the job all is good, and then when it comes to starting work and having an actual 6-7 hour shift, i cant bring myself to go!
I think this is a set back because a couple of days ago i met up with my friends for the first time in 3 months, i dragged my agoraphobic self off the sofa and i told myself i will not let anxiety ruin my life, so i went out i had a great time and felt positive, but now 2 days later I've had huge anxiety stress all day, shakey feeling, depersonalisation, aching legs and arms are very heavy, sad/crying all day, blaming my self, last night i kept having big twitches jumping up from my sleep, its tearing me apart
I start counselling on 7th January hopefully that will help, but my mum is demanding i go back to the doctors and get some medication but I'm too scared to have it any advice!! Xx