Holiday anxiety.

[Eloisex]

Hi everyone I thought I would post about this 'problem' I have because I'd like to get outsiders thoughts and opinions.

Basically, when I was younger I used to go away with my family and never think twice about wanting to come home all I done was enjoy myself and not have a care in the world. Last year in August I went away with my friend and her dad and he's girlfriend& her son. I didn't particularly know them well but I obv knew my friend lol. Well anyway I went away with them, before I got in the taxi to go to the airport I randomly started crying, I had a little panick or anxiety attack I think but I ignored it and just said I was just nervous leaving my family behind as its my first holiday without a family member. I got to the airport was fine on the plane I was fine when I got to the hotel in Spain instantly I wanted to go home I don't know what was wrong with me I was meant to stay there for 2 weeks but I got a flight home after 5 days I was so home sick!

This year in June I had a holiday booked with my boyfriend and a family member and I was so looking forward to it and closer it got the scarier it seemed because I was so scared to get the same feelings I had when I was away with my friend that time it was that bad I got to the airport after all day and night crying and anxious I didn't even go on holiday!

The thing is I really want to go away but I'm scared I am going to get these feelings again and I'm going to want to go home

It is so annoying I just would like others opinions? X

[Eloisex]

I'm 18 by the way forgot to mention.

[sgbmandy]

Hi love basically when you went away with your friend and their family you panicked ao much that you came home. That was a panick attack my love, now what you doing is panicking about panicking you probably will have one over there but its a thought and lots of scary feelings running around your mind and body. I went away with my friend without my partner, managed the flight got to the villa, then boom overwhelming sence of dread what the hell was I doing I cant so this I want to go home, bit i didn't I tried to relax cos the feelings only last for a little while, now I associate holidays with these feelings and like you I panick when it gets nearer to going, ride through these feelings and make it all the way if you keep turning around and going home you'll never get there, keep telling yourself it will pass it's just a panick attack im ok, and you will be, I know its awefull when it happens but it will pass. Bloody hell I went to turkey and had a panick attack in the middle of a gorge xx in the river jeysus but I got through it lol I'm still here. Nothing stops me from seeing mr sunshine. Lol when i get there in the hotel villa ect. I panick but then ill sit on my veranda patio ect with a gin and tonic or mojito and think of the tan I'm going to get lol. Ow yeah. Heaven on a plate. Your not going to die no one has ever died of a panick attack, and thats what it is, trust me I have the exact same feelings as you but i go all the way and enjoy myself, you will too don't let this bloody illness stop you, and your boyfriend will be there, your just panicking about panicking get out there and enjoy it. I do and if I have an attack I ride it out you can too, if I so get too panicky I do the same sit on my veranda with my gnt as were allowed on hol lol 😁 gather my thoughts back to normal and get back into it. You can do I missus n I wanna postcard ha ha 😊 take care love. Xx mandy😎

[Eloisex in reply to sgbmandy]

Thank you so much for getting back to me! It was so bad though like one minute I was fine everyone trying to calm me down I felt so embarrassed like its the only thing I have ever had anxiety with other than stupid things like needles etc lol. But thoughts run through my head like what if something happens because one of my verrrry close family members has been on holiday and been severely ill and nearly died so it worries me ! I always think like 'what if I get there and I want to go home, how can I be on that holiday feeling like how I did when I went away with my friend' ... 'Why would I put myself through that' but then now I still think that but now I'm not acc in that situation j can see the good aswell? X

[sgbmandy]

Yes love your panicking about panicking its normal. The other thing is that your letting it affect your loved ones too get out there love and enjoy, you will xxx as I doo, think of that tan pwhaaa you always feel on top of the world with a tan, haha and if you live in England well we ain't gonna tan here without a tanning booth pmsl have to pay for mr sunshine lol, get yerself out there gal xx you can have a panick attack in the rain n snow xx but it feels so much better in the sun, oh n that mr san Miguel is so refreshing, sorry my sence of humour it's a local beer. Xxxx ow n don't forget my postcard. Book it pack it n fuck this anxiety shit 😊 😎 xxx Mandy

[Eloisex in reply to sgbmandy]

Haha you have made me think now in a different way thank you so much I am gonna book it and if I was so desperate to come home it's only a flight away x but I wanna fight through it x

[sgbmandy in reply to Eloisex]

Wheydagooo sunshine now thats what I like to hear, and I betcha bottom dollar you don't come home. Enjoy gal, then book the next and next and next whoop whoop. I promise you'll be fine n looking good with a glow to be proud off, ya friends will be jealous when ya get back. I've had this loose wire in my head foe over 35 years I've been to India Puerto Rico, Benidorm, Turkey, three times Egypt. And my panick attacks came with me xxx but didn't Stop me either. Pack it in ya suitcase but as one of those items you don't use, we all over pack ha ha maybe on the odd occasion hmmm up to you, I usually. Zip the little shit in n lock it up till I have to open it again to come home, then say ooh I forgot id packed you pwhaaa, sorry my sence of humour again I'm mad, I know xx get it booked. N enjoy. life's for living not for worrying. Xxx 😊 mandy

[Eloisex in reply to sgbmandy]

Yes!, what I am going to do is book it for my boyfriends birthday next year and surprise him! He will be surprised too lol!! And I am just going to book one for 3 nights and once that is done I know I will be fine xx

[sgbmandy in reply to Eloisex]

Wheyhey girl the things I like to hear, nip it in the bud right now, I promise you'll enjoy it and get them sexy bikinis and give him another surprise. Wink wink. Lol dirty bird xxx ya can do it I promise, have A GIN N TONIC FOR ME. Oh baby cheeses im gona have to book mine now xxx Mandy 😁😵