Unbearable, feel like it's not worth living.

So, my anxiety has been at an all time high lately, which now has triggered depression. I am about 30 lbs overweight but that won't stay for long as I have deprived myself of food, only eating dinner and a snack each day. I have agoraphobia, I get headaches, chest pains that feel like thunder, jelly legs, shortness of breath especially when I lay on my back. I force myself to curdle up in my room, separating myself from the outside world or human contact besides the people who live here and my friends on FaceTime and Skype. It feels like I serve no other purpose but to take up oxygen that the people who do important tasks breathe. I can barely focus in homeschool, and feel like I carry a giant weight on my back everyday.

[maggie91]

You need to eat healthy food and snacks. Don't starve your body of healthy foods, only makes anxiety worse. You need to keep your sugar level even all day. Eat small meals and snack on almonds, pumpkin seeds, fruit, yogurt and drink lots of water. Also, exercise helps ease your anxiety. You can start off by just walking at least an hour a day. Make yourself do this. Not only will it help your anxiety but will make you healthier and lose weight. Walk everyday and you will start feeling physically better. You sound young, so one hour shouldn't be a problem. As you feel stronger, you might walk some and jog some. Exercise is good for the heart also. I always took my walk when I felt the most anxious. It helps and I do it everyday. I walk at least 4 miles a day and I am 70 years old. My anxiety has lessened over time. Be strong and diligent . Don't quit because you have to work at it.