Hi. I hope I'm not the only one in this. I'm 15 years old, and about 5 months ago, I had a panic attack during my school's sports day. Ever since, I can't eat with people around, because i would feel super nauseous, and just I'd feel nervous to eat. Even if I don't eat, and I feel this anxiety, I could throw up, but there would be nothing, just water. I can't go out with my parents and sister to eat, because I'd feel this anxiety, even when I smell food. I would have to order in food or pack it home, bring it to somewhere I can be alone, like my room, and then eat as usual. This anxiety feeling doesn't only come when I'm eating. I could simply think about that time during sports day, and feel really nervous. I just told my parents recently, and all my friends after so long, because I've completely ran out of excuses to give for not eating. Sometimes I cry my ass off when I'm alone because I don't know how I'm going to just go through things. I'm a teen and I get invited out to hang out often, and stuff like that. I would really love to go but I simply can't and have to stay home like a loser. In school, I barely eat. I pack food and maybe sneak myself to the toilet and eat in between classes. Now that it's summer, I get to be free and just be in my room and I don't have to eat with my friends and all that. I don't know how much longer I can take this. I really want it to stop. I hope I'm not alone in this, and I know this is all just in the mind. I don't want to see a doctor, because they would just tell me that it's all in the mind and there's no medication to take. Also, I'm very underweight. I'm a really skinny girl, and I can't afford to lose anymore weight! In these past few months, I've lost 2kgs. It really upset me because it took me about a year to gain that 2kgs.
I hope there are tips for me. I really hate this feeling and I'm afraid it won't go away, and I would forever have to eat alone and not be able to socialize.