I am so fed up feeling scared all the time! Heart racing, I feel like I am expecting something awful to happen a lot of the time and the most scary symptom of anxiety I have is feeling unable to breathe, can't catch my breath, it's so horrible. My muscles are all tense and stiff causing painful neck, shoulders, back and up the back of my head, causing terrible migraine/cluster headaches. I have IBS and rheumatoid arthritis in my neck, back, hands and feet. I'm practically house bound because of fear of going out alone and having panic attack. I sometimes go shopping with my partner and I am so scared, then I get all het up and flustered sorting the groceries at the til and putting them in the shopping bags and paying, especially if there is a queue behind me. It's so frightening, i'd rather stay at home, safe with my two gorgeous fur babies.
I'd love to feel calm, relaxed and go out and about like most people do. I was made redundant March 2015, but when I was working, my partner would take me to work and meet me after or i'd panic. I am now on ESA, but have an Assessment next Monday 6 July and i'm worried sick about that now. I know I'm ill and I know I can't work, I'm 56 this year. Has anybody been on ESA with depression/anxiety/IBS and rheumatoid arthritis? I hope I get through the assessment, my partner is coming with me. I don't want what little money ESA is to be stopped.
From Flustered Linda Xx