I'm new to this forum, I've been struggling to come to terms with being signed off. I was signed off for 2 weeks last tues with anxiety. Ive had depression for many years now and have been on citalopram. I was signed off because I had been having panic attacks in work but these started becoming daily and I got to the point where I couldn't do my job without having to walk out and cry in the toilets. I would spend about 15mins at a time in the toilet. I know having been signed off I will be screwing over those at work as they'll end yp with more work to do and I'm worried what people will think of me when I return and so I really feel I need to get back in order to get work done. While I've been off I've had 3 good days where I've been able to get out of bed in the morning and get stuff done but on the rest I've woken up crying, and this morning particularly I had a panic attack for no reason at all.. Most days I feel like a zombie, like I'm not myself and that it's like I'm not all there as it were. I'm seeing my doctor tomorrow for a review to see whether I'm fit to return to work next week but I don't know what I'll tell her. I don't know whether I'm fit to return or not..
Any advice on how others have coped with this would be amazing. Thank you x