I haven't been on for a while but its all going wrong. I still haven't found a job after 3 months. My dad had a heart attack, I am being stalked - people are after me. I am 46 and I keep saying I want to die. I never had any family due to my constant anxiety. My wife must be cheesed off. Can you imagine living in this constant state. There must be some reason for all this. I'm going to the psychologist which is good. I am also pounds in debt. I have been to a mental health charity which helps too.