Had a lovely 4 days holiday with my mum and kids and then hubby flew away on a stag weekend so we were like passing ships lol !
Anyway 2 weeks ago with some persistent ' sympyons' I went to Dr it's mostly lower back pain also a nipping sensation at waist etc Dr said ok could be ibs , could be the anxiety but we will do a couple blood tests - they checked blood count , checked for coeliac and also inflammatory . I phoned fr reaukts and the nurse said s was fine . However I also had requested last November to be referred back for more cbt , I had my ' assessment' a month ago which was horrendous I actually walked out in tears.
When they asked my reason for being referred I said I had short circuited due to mums cancer then both out BRCA 2 positive resuts and her answer was ( I should point out this lady is the head of mislothian psychology team - she said no- one in her team was experienced to help me I should go to ' my' human genetics. She completely write off my health anxiety saying I should be on specific tablets and then after a few more questions by which point I was in tears and vulnerable she interrupted to say ' wow I'm usually good at keeping to an hour' I had been in there for 35 mins. Told me she couldn't help so I interupted her and said I would contact human genetics and I would be taking her attitude further to which she asked can I see your core sheet - after a glimpse she said I couldnt refer you anyway as you only scored 9 . I replied with well that's a lot of rubbish because if j filled it in. Ow after your performance It would show my anxiety at a much higher level !
No wonder people feel they are being failed with correct support !
So when I return home today to find a letter asking me to contact my surgery for a
Routine go phone consultation I have went into full blown anxiety as to what it's about and as hubby didn't open my mail while away o have missed surgery until Tuesday !
Aaargh I wish anxiety would go away