My shoulder muscles are really tight. It interrupts my sleep and everything. My chiropractor adjusted me but it didn't seem to do anything for that. He's also my nutritionalist and wanted to see my lab work I got done in July.
I got scared though that he implied something could have changed since then. That freaked me out, but I can tell he has little knowledge of anxiety. Like when I said I can't eat much due to anxiety, I do not think he actually really believes anxiety can affect someone so strongly. I'm going to describe everything I feel so if anyone can relate, please do!
-overwhelming feeling. Like my eyes cannot take in anymore
-jolting awake at night, so much I can't remember each time
-uneasiness in pit of stomach or upper stomach but I'm not actually nauseous
-de personalized. Feel like a body without a soul
-feel out of control
-different tastes in mouth that come and go randomly, but are pretty vague and don't taste bad
-some lightheadedness. Used to suffer with this greatly but it has diminished quite a lot. So when it returns, I think it is something serious.
-more anxious in the evening, on edge, feeling like I'm about to snap and lose it
-scary thoughts
Sometimes my right hand goes weak, but my mom said that's due to my tight traps (she used to massage people).
When I write it out, it looks like anxiety but what I'm feeling feels much worse than something to describe. Like I'm not sure if im describing it correctly.
I sometimes also feel like a zombie, wasted, disoriented, etc.
I keep thinking that if something bad we're going on, it would have shown up or done something since anxiety started in June for me.
I can't go to the ER or the hospital. I went once and the person never even said anxiety. She told me, after having everything tested, that I should eat vegetables.
I mean, really?