I have had what I think are probably some mental illness issues for about 5 years now. But it is just recently that I have even finally accepted that I think I have serious anxiety issues and it is only because it is really disrupting my life. I can't sleep, I can't eat when I want to, I feel nauseous suddenly in times that are high anxiety (this can be anything - things not so big to other people - and I mean at this point, several times a day). I have breathing weirdness also at these times. Most nights I have to take gravol or night cold medicine to even sleep, which I know is horrible for me - but it takes me hours of lying there to fall asleep at all, and sometimes I can stay up all night (Once I fall asleep, I could sleep all day. I am somehow always tired also?) I get headaches and my body is sore always. I am always always anxious and disheartened and I am at my wit's end because every day is just disrupted and it is getting worse day by day. I am scared it's going to affect my education. I am really emotionally and socially bad. I have an impossible time making friends or speaking to people also. I have vomitted/been suddenly ill from anxiety in these past months, which is really when it has gotten this bad.
I live in Canada. I am only 19. What would I tell my doctor? What might my doctor say? Is there any way I can do this without my parents knowing? I have a good relationship with them but we don't talk about these things, and I don't want them to be disappointed/think I'm weird and whatnot. I really don't know what to do. Would my doctor put me on medication? I am at this horrible point where I think that might be the only option and if it will help I will do anything. Would my Canadian healthcare cover that or would that be different? (I have OHIP, Ontario).
I am not keen on seeing a therapist because I am so socially anxious. I don't know what to do. I am really struggling. I am really stuck and it is really affecting my life.
Thank you in advance.