I never experienced my first "panic attack" until I was about 5 or 6 months pregnant with my baby; whom is now a beautiful growing 16 month old bundle of joy! Anyways.. They gradually got worse after I had her, and eventually I was feeling weird and just totally not myself ALL day, EVERY day starting when she was only 2 months old. I refused to believe anyone when they brought up the word "anxiety" or the words "panic attack." I had NEVER felt that way my whole life, and it was absolutely terrifying. After 6 months of literally driving myself crazy I finally went to a psychiatrist. Which might I add, took a VERY long time to do, and patience was something I could just not think of at the time. I got put on medication, and it seriously changed everything. It was like I was slowly, but surely coming back to my old self; whom I DEARLY missed. Just a few days ago however, I've started to feel the despair again. I've already been to the ER multiple times, and I am so afraid of going through this again..