Is there anyone that feels just as I do? In a nutshell in the last eight years I have been in an abusive relationship which I made the decision to end. This has left me in £ 15000 in debt, very low and have been on Citalopram 40 mg which has helped immensely. Everything in my life never seems to go right three years I had RTA on my push bike and couldn't walk for 6 months. My partner then always found me a job where he was working every moment of my time was with him. I moved back to where I was brought up and found a job which I enjoyed as it this was my job and on my own merits. This time last year things became unbearable with him. He said that my job was making me a changed person and I should leave . Between the debt which was all in my name as he was bankrupt I just could not cope any more. I also, haven't mentioned finding cocaine in his pocket and at one stage he kicked the door in blaming me that he did not have a key and was very abusive to me. I eventually go the strength from somewhere to tell him to go. He left and it was a relief even though in debt and being such a state not remembering what I was doing from one moment to the next. My GP was very understanding and arranged for me to go counselling, which I found very helpful in discovering that he was at fault! My GP signed me on the sick the first part of this year then I broke my wrist and had shingles afterwards. The final straw was he then informed me that he was gay and had to go and get myself checked out for my own sanity - which came back all negative! He then said it was all a joke...... I have no friends, overweight, do not want to go out , jobless, drink more than I should and feel empty.