For as long as I can remember I have been terrified of getting a terminal illness, I am constantly on symptom checker looking up various symptoms. Every slight pain I get sends me into complete panics that sometimes keep me awake all night crying. I've recently had a lot of trouble with lower tummy pain and vaginal pain, I've been to several doctors but none of them can complete a speculum examination because it causes me an unbearable amount of pain. This has made me fear the worst and the worry of having cervical cancer is on my mind all day every day. Also recently I have developed a fear of being near anyone or being in contact with anyone with any type of cold or sick bug, I have asthma and a terrible digestive system so react badly to both. But I'm constantly washing my hands when around someone who is ill. Other anxieties seem to have got so much worse in the last few months as well, I struggle to leave the house alone because people always seem to stare at me. We have had lots of builders in our house recently and when they are there I can't even leave my bedroom because of a fear of having to communicate with them. I find it so difficult to order in a restaurant now or ask for anything in a shop and I constantly worry that my partner no longer loves me. And (as ridiculous as it sounds) that my hamster will die. Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with any of these?