Nagging doubt.

[shadow45]

I wonder if any of you have this underlying feeling that it will all end badly. I live with this everyday And I have come to realize that I have been thinking this way for many years...It could be the root of my anxiety The feeling that nothing is rock solid....I know from therapy because we moved around so much when I was young.. that this feeling of uncertainty was a constant in my life.... Always the new kid at school etc....Now I cant get passed the idea that something will come along and mess up anything good in my life.... I have a strong will and I don't give in easily... But I just can't shake this nagging doubt about how things will turn out for me....I know it sounds defeated to talk like this.... as I do have so many positive things going on right now... It could be due to the separation from my parents and family.... I Guess even when things were hectic with relocating all the time... I always had my family around me.... Now that has changed permanently and I feel adrift in a way...With nothing to cling on to for comfort. I missed the meeting where they handed out inner strength. steve

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hi steve, I think you are spot on with your own assessment, missing your mam / dad being around to give you that bit of confidence, you have come so far in your life lately, your strong will, with the meds , your fab new job, it is all good , & don't you deserve it, would be lovely to just meet a lovely lady to share all your love with, maybe one day, great to hear from you again, love jasper x

[Tara67]

Hi Steve, I know exactly how you feel. There was a lot of conflict between my parents when I was growing up, actually there still is. Being a very sensitive child it has given me a fear of conflict and a constant feeling something bad is going to happen. I have so many good things in my life but I like you say you can't shake the nagging doubt.

Let's try and be positive together x

[shadow45 in reply to Tara67]

Hi Tara. Just comes and goes as you know. I think a long time without any major issues is needed for both of us ...We do stay attached to the past to much... and most therapy(s) are about letting go of the past... as we can't change anything about that time in our lives. take care steve

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Hi Steve

It s understandable you re luck of sensation of stability..it s what you had since you were a kid and what you always known..

But now you re grown up and you can make your life,you can create you own stability...for example you have a nice job now..and this is a strong point at the moment if your life..

[Nichola26]

Hello, I always have the feeling something bad is going to happen to me and my family regarding our health I'm expecting something every day, slightest ailment of someone close to me turns into I'm going to lose them. I go into a spiral of having horrible thoughts of illness death how will I we cope. It's awful. I'm trying to get to the root of my problem as I'm just accepting I can't live like this anymore it's ruining my life. I hope you find peace I am new on here and I'm finding it a great help to know I'm not on my own with this awful feeling. Have you joined some local community groups or try and get out and about to meet new people? X

[Hidden in reply to Nichola26]

Hi Nichola

Know how you feel. My mum was diagnosed with BC 10 years ago and it has recurred and is now life limiting for her. I have just had the most appalling 6 months of my life indeed at the start I thought I was going to lose her she was so poorly. But after the miracle drugs that are chemotherapy she has pulled out of it. I don't know how but things look a bit more promising now than they did at Christmas. Alongside that for some bizarre reason I keep having problems with my cervix and at the same time mum had her BC diagnosed I was being called to the hospital for check ups on my cervix. When this happens I am completely paralysed with fear incase mine ends up being cancerous too! Indeed trying to cope with the thoughts that my mum is dying and that I will lose her and also with my own health check ups (which I may add I find excruciatingly painful) ended up with me being signed off work for 6 months. I have been searching for help with this as I can't be off work every time something like this happens. Talk Therapy is helping (free on NHS) but won't be enough so then it's a case of paying for something. I am considering seeing a lady called Demi Schneider (you can find her on a web search) but quite expensive. Or doing a Mindfulness course to try teach myself relaxation as it is that feeling of 'doom' that I can't shake either.

[shadow45 in reply to Nichola26]

Hi Nichola. I have looked a few things to pull myself out of feeling lonely.. I`ll find something eventually .. or not... I am an odd duck that way. This site has helped. Have a great day steve.