Warning rant ahead.
I understand there's a time and place for things but i am at a loss. Why does anxiety take away the fun from the simple things. It's so frustrating and miserable to live this way. Constantly thinking about doom and anticipating the worst. Constantly thinking you're going to loose control. Always feeling and noticing every single thing. During a time when you're supposed to experience nothing but happiness you deal with nothing more then an internal struggle.
How do you live when anxiety doesn't allow you too? You put all the time an effort to "accept" and "let it be" but still nothing. The mind does what it does regardless of how you act towards it. When will there be peace from this? When life is finally over? How can one look forward to a future knowing this will always be around?
I effing hate this. I hope that there are many out there who were able to find peace of mind and enjoy this holiday season. Stay blessed everyone