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Coming back to you all again... I am really starting to worry about going back to work full time five days a week.... I have been working hard on getting settled in my new place trying to get to a place with the CBT and now its the job coming up .....My anxiety is telling me not to go.... and phone to say I am not well..... But the CBT is telling me not to avoid fearful situations.... Now as I've said before at night I don't have these worries .So I have to ask you all.... Why cant I stop this back and forth thinking........ It really makes no sense..... I Am going to try an experiment today ....At 2 o clock .....10 o'clock your time...... I take my Paxil and sometimes my quick fix pill as well....Now Im going to pay very close attention to my thinking process and try and see if and when it changes back into... its ok I can handle it..... I have a sneaking suspicion it will be about an hour after I take the Xanax ....and If it is .... will I have to take my Xanax before I go to work.... steve

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HI Steve x Try to not think to much about work, I know you said you start on the 1st but try to relax and not think of it coming, Its gonna be fine once you are there, you will love it. Try to go for walks maybe or distract yourself the more you think of it the more you will over think and then all is lost. Its good that you are trying the cbt, I'm going back for more myself, it was good enough to make some difference the first time but I'm hoping the second will push me further x You are doing amazingly well If you avoid going ot work the anxiety will of won and it will in time tell you to avoid more and more things and then being like me is the end result x Dont lock yourself away keep pushing it really is the best thing to do x Anxiety will come to terms with your determination and back off. Yes try your experiment it cannot hurt, xanax is similar to the diazipam people take here and I have been told its better to take it before you hit the stress so maybe before work will be better x I hope it works out for you I really do x Donnaxx

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Hi Donna... yes your right ....I do this little mind game with myself all the time... Ill go to work and Ill find that it will be fine... I mean I have been doing this type of work for years .I could do it blindfolded . The experiment turned out as I thought... So Ill think about taking my Xanax an hour before I go if I need to Or Ill make sure I have one with me, I know I would beat myself up to much if I didn't go .... I have to accept the facts as they are... If I need the pill Ill take it until I can assert more control over my anxiety ....Thanks again for your solid advice.. Much love and gratitude steve

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Hi Steve

Hope you made okay to work. As Donna said taking a Xanax before you go can be a good idea just to keep yourself calm.

These pills are here to help is and as long as we use them sensibly as you are then they will help you get through. I find even knowing that I have one in my bag helps me and my pysch agrees. Good luck. Keep calm and carry on!!! You know what you are doing as you have done it before. We are all rooting for you, let us know how you got on.

Xxxxx

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Hi Steve,

I can't add to the positive advice given, and I think you are in control of your thoughts.

Good luck, I hope you enjoyed going to work.

Eunice xx