Ever since I came back from college, I have had the worst anxiety.
To make an extremely long story not quite as long: I went away to school in late September, but ended up coming home in early November due to medical issues (anxiety included) and a few financial issues. I had never had any kind of anxiety until I went away to school. At school, I was miserable; I hated it, didn't make friends, and started having my first anxiety attacks. I would call my mom crying almost every day. When I finally came home, the first few weeks back were great, as I was overjoyed to be home. Then one day I just snapped. I started getting pretty bad anxiety every night, I couldn't stand and was scared of being home alone, or doing anything alone. The weird part is that before I went to school I was extremely introverted, preferred spending time alone, and loved staying home alone. Now I hate it. I started seeing a therapist in December, and it has helped quite a bit, but I still get pretty, always getting anxious.
I have grown extremely close with my mom. I have started doing some part-time work at the same business she works at. Originally, I only went in to work with her on Tuesdays and Thursday.. but then that turned into Tues., Thurs., and Friday... now Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. (I don't go on Wednesdays because that is when my therapist appointment is..)
I don't know what to do anymore or why I'm even anxious/scared to be home. I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow, which is good, but I'm just at my wit's end. I just want to go back to how I used to be. I can't live the rest of my life like this. I get extremely anxious if my evening/nighttime routine is messed up or any of my routines are messed up. I just can't handle this anymore. Any tips/advice/anything? I've heard vitamin D helps with anxiety. I do not want to take medication.