I’m not even sure anymore

[Chubbers]

Feeling so anxious and scared of everything. Not sure how to cope with life. Everything is too overwhelming so I don’t want to do anything. I stress my Mom and husband because they can’t just “fix” me. I’m not enjoying any part of life at all right now. If it’s not anxiety it’s migraines or stomach issues or other health issues. I’m always in pain. I really don’t know what to do. I only do what I have to and I’m extremely overwhelmed. One trip up and down stairs for laundry is just about all I can do then I’m in pain. My nieces and nephews used to talk to me but my brother and his wife are having issues now they act like I don’t exist. I’m scared. I’m so scared nothing will ever be good or fun again. Thank you to anyone who read ALL OF THIS MESS!!! I’m just feeling defeated. 😥

[PositiveSurvival]

I’m in the same boat. I LITERALLY struggle hour to hour. No way to live.

[Chubbers in reply to PositiveSurvival]

No it’s not and people around me think I’m doing it on purpose not knowing the nagging pain inside. They say I need to say things like “I’m great” then someday it will be true. The whole positive thinking just doesn’t work for me. I have tried believe me all my life.

[PositiveSurvival in reply to Chubbers]

I know what you mean. Mine is all mental rather than physical- but people just say “man up”. They don’t know what chronic anxiety / depression is like. It consumes you and takes every drop of energy to fight. It’s not something you can just consciously switch on and off.

[Naliegha in reply to PositiveSurvival]

Try the dare app and pacifica app! Especially dare, it helps tremendously with anxiety, worry, and panic attacks. I was praying for help and healing for my ocd which caused major qnxiety and panic attacks, i couldnt leave the house, i couldnt do simple basic things like laundry, cook, put a cap on a water bottle cause of panic and ocd. Dare app was such a lifesaver, not that I was suicidal but ot helped get my life back, on top of praying. God led me to it and im so grateful for his healing and for showing me this app! Also pacifica helps as it helps with day to day goals. Not bog thongs at all and u creqte them. It also has a community forum where u can post annynmously about ur anxiety. And youd be amazed how many people are going what youre going through and how they help each other. I tell everuone about theae apps cause i was ao tired pf the constant heart and mind race. I got my sleep back. Im now able to leave the bed, the house, 2 months i was house bound from fear of everything. I hope it helps u guys!

[Hidden]

I experience the same from time to time. End up feeling like this is never gonna change so why do I bother so much with trying to make it better.

But then something happens...I get a nice reply to a post here, or I succeed in accepting an anxiety attack and see that it does slow down.

I stress myself out trying to be everything to everyone. I fear rejection, I fear being left out, I fear a whole bunch of things. Was like this as a kid...people pleaser. But now I'm finding it doesn't work. But it's hard to let go of the old way of doing things. I exhaust myself worrying about what others will think.

Learning to say WTF a little bit more. Hopefully one of these days a release from this will happen.

A word of advice...tell your husband and mother that them hovering over you trying to fix you may actually be making things worse for you. Give yourself permission to be like this and let go of trying so hard to be so good.

Just a thought.

Bat.

[Hidden]

Did you ever take the medication?

[Chubbers in reply to Hidden]

I have been on medications for a ver very long time

[Hidden]

I’m the same way! It’s awful, life feels so overwhelming

[Chubbers in reply to Hidden]

I wonder why I am like this and why I can’t change. Why can’t anything be fun or even slightly fun? I guess I’ll just be me the best I can!

[Valorrian]

Are you seeing a therapist and talking to someone? I see you are taking meds. Maybe they need to be adjusted or something different. I have anxiety, depression and panic attacks. I do deep breathing and mediation. It helps me when I'm experiencing any one of this symptoms. Perhaps they can help you. I do wish you the best.

[Chubbers in reply to Valorrian]

I have tried a lot of things. I also have vertigo/dizziness. It’s hard to do anything. I work but that’s about it. Thank you for caring 😊

[Ann10]

Sorry to hear that you struggle with anxiety and depression. I like to use my five senses to enjoy the present moment. I listen to music and go outside and enjoy nature. These resources bit.ly/might_help you get through your day better.

[Chubbers in reply to Ann10]

Thank you! I want to use those senses. Mine seem to be heightened senses and then I get paranoid. Like heightened sense of smell and I think something is burning. I don’t like loud noises. I do listen to music. I don’t go outside much although the weather is nice and Fall like now. Thanks for the ideas! 💛

[pink83737]

I know how you feel

[Ann10]

Some people are more sensitive to outside stimuli. I understand what you are saying. I don't like IMAX movies because they are too loud, and there is too much to look at and hear at the same time. Going outside is very peaceful, and I like to look around and see what is blooming or enjoy the wildlife in my area.