A little update...

Hello everyone..

Thought I'd give you all a little update....I'm no better than I was last week or the week before.

My famous heart is still fluttering away....I'm eating better...getting more exercise..you name it and I just feel worse off.

I get pain in my chest...my heart skips...I feel constantly tired....I feel ill....I can feel the skips in my throat...they make me feel dizzy and sick..that's how bad they have got.

I don't even want to moan about it cause I just don't even see the point anymore..I'm just trying to get on with it regardless.

I didn't bother with the propranolol in the end as ever time I took one I just worried myself sick that it was gonna make my heart beat too slowly or lower my blood pressure even more. So having the total opposite effect if what it was meant to do.

It's coming up to a year since I started all this anxiety malarky and to be honest I really thought I'd be half way better by now but it's been 2 steps forward and a 100 back...too the point I just feel in a totally panic all day every day.

Talk about not living cause I'm too busy being worried about dying....when I feel okay I actually feel elated and on too of the world and then when I feel crap it's like an almighty bang back down to earth.

Stop the world cause I want to get off.

That's how I feel right now

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Hi Ashley

Oh bless you

I know what this feels like when I was your age I used to have the same symptoms & fears & it made me feel just like you & now looking back I think how I wished that I had known what I know now , but I know that doesn't help when you are suffering

I know a year can seem a long time & sometimes people do get better within that time & others take longer but you will get there I know you will

I am hoping that once you see that cardiologist this will really help you to believe that anxiety has caused your famous heart & nothing else

I know I have spoken to you already & I keep saying I am going of here now as I have my ironing & my date at 7

But could not say hello to you on your post

Love

whywhy

xxx

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Hi Ashley.

Sorry to hear your having such a crap time. I know we have said it before but why don't you go and see your GP again, if your going to take medication you have to keep it up and persevere until it starts working for you. I have not taken Propanalol so I don't know what effects it has but if I were you I would give it a try.

Take care Kenny

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I take propranolol for all those symptoms you describe. I try without sometimes. But the ibternal jitters and flutters all come back immediately. I take 20mg tree times a day. But when I was younger was on 40mgs 3times a day. Hopefully your cardiologist will reassure you about your cardiac function. I have even been prescribed a gtn spray to take under the tongue (like for angina).......it helped reduce the chest tightness and pain. ....but that was about 20yrs ago. I DIDNT have anything wrong with my heart. All anxiety. Hope this might give u some hope. Kath xx

[mimii]

Hi Ashley, sorry to hear how bad you're feeling again, sounds like you're doing all the right things , eating well and exercising so well done for that, you say this started about a year ago, was there something in particular that happened at that time, just wondering if counselling might help xx

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Hi Ashley

Sorry youre struggling.... I hope it gets better soon

Luv Ker xx

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Hey you guys

Thanks for the replies and sorry I took so long to get back to you.

I went out yesterday and totally forgot I had even wrote this...I was a panicky mess most of the day but what's news tho lol!

Xx