Today has been quite an up and down day...started off okay all thought I've dreamt of my ex the last two nights in a row, so as the day has went on I've found her more and more on my mind. Last few months I've been able to just push it to the back and carry on but I'm finding it harder and harder to do it.
Tonight especially I feel very deflated and teary, like I keep feeling like a want to cry and I really don't know what for...is it missing my ex? Am I feeling sorry for myself? One of the last things she said to me was I needed to stop all my self pity stuff. I didn't think I was like that at all but it's made me feel that I can't even feel sorry for myself from time to time or I'm some kind of bad person.
I think I'm just reading to much into things and there is no use going over old things. Don't know where this has come from all of sudden tonight but i feel better getting it out.
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