After yesterday...

Was so positive when I woke up yesterday morning....work was okay to begin with but as the day went on I slowly creeped back into sad mode. I know it's to be expected and break up is a roller coaster of emotions in the first few months but I guess what it is as I discussed it all with my therapist who said I should not discuss it with anyone instead try to deal with what happened myself instead of having everyone else's opinion in my head try and come up with my own...which yes is a very good idea in theory but all my mind is shouting at me is that I've done the wrong thing...I shouldn't have walked out...I'm the bad one...I messed up the relationship....basically my mind is telling me it's all my fault.

Everyone else is telling me that I've done the right thing and what not and to begin with I believed them but now I'm not so sure.

I'm trying to be in the here and now cause as I said yesterday what's happened has happened but that doesn't stop my now mind telling me I'm at fault.

Just wanted to get this off my chest. Feel a bit better now

It's Friday so there's a positive right away lol.

Xx

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It is a rollercoaster HUn, and youre doing so well, its very early days for you............. Just try ride it.......... Im still getting over my ex and I know what you mean about blaming yourself, I think that's part of who we are.....

Get writing that list of all the things that you didn't like about him and your relationship ..... pros and cons typ-e thing.... and be honest..... and I think you may just realise its for the best..........

Keep Strong xx

[Maya_dawn]

Hi Ashley, you aren't alone in how you're feeling and the roller-coaster emotions you're experiencing. I don't think there is any right or wrong way to feel or think right now. Eventually, just like a swinging pendulum, the emotions and thoughts will calm themselves down. Its still in the early stages of the breakup, so hang on there - try to think of it in this way: in order to get to the other side (where you are feeling normal and calm), you have go to through this phase where you experience a riot of emotions.