My 9 yr old is saying he is not going to school because he wants to look after me. I'm not sure if he is telling the truth or not.
I had a talk with my husband and told him some home truths, I still feel though it is all my fault for being like this.
I've rung the doctors this morning and put a rocket up their bums, for Wednesdays appt and the fact the dr hasn't rung me back, I said I wanted to put a complaint in but the practice manager isn't in until next week. I told them I feel like I am not being taken seriously, I am not getting better even with trying, my family seems to be falling down around me etc. I cried as well.
I feel really anxious and I have to make this bloody cake.
My husband said I don't need to talk to him about how my day has been because I have you lot!!!!!! I also said we seem to live totally independent life's he said that's right we shouldn't be together 24/7 I said we don't talk about anything, he doesn't tell me what his family are doing etc. I also told him I don't want to go out with him because he will push me too far, scare me silly and shout at me. Also he has made no effort at all to understand my illness I've been off work since April with it, I've told him I don't think he cares for me, he never rings or texts during the day to ask how everything is. I don't feel I can put me trust in him to look after me.
I am really really fed up and don't know where to turn. I had a dream the other night and my mum appeared in it, when I mean appeared I didn't dare open my eyes because I thought I would see her, it was so vivid.
I really need some help.
Bits of that were positive and bits not!!!
Sorry to rant, off to start icing this cake now xxxxx