Wow, poor you. I'm so sorry to hear that you are experiencing such symptoms. I have just joined this website, because I have had what feels like anxiety( constant butterflies in my stomach). Thought someone might have any ideas if it could be anxiety? What you are experiencing is much worse and you should be consulting with your GO, to get the help you need. Are there any proffesionals on this site whom can help, or do people just post things in the hope to get some support and comfort from complete strangers.? I have no idea as how to support you and no one on this site with any medical experience or qualifications should be giving any advice other that asking you to go see your GP. You will be referred to a consultant and get the help you need.

Hello there! Let me start by saying I have anxiety, depression and OCD so I feel for you and what you're going through. OCD is very difficult to deal with as it often makes you think of doing what you fear the most, even if you know you would never do it. What you're describing are intrusive thoughts and it's one of the most common symptoms of OCD. The second part of what you're describing sounds a lot like depression, as dealing with it in the past I've experienced days and even months of that "dazed" feeling you speak of. Loss of interest is also a big sign you could be suffering from depression. I saw you mentioned in a previous reply that you've been seeing your doctor without any improvement. I recommend you ask to be referred to a psychiatrist or try to find one who seems fitting for you, as they specialize in mental illness. I'm actually going to start seeing one soon for my OCD. It's a lot to deal with and I'm glad you're willing to get help, that's the first step to healing. Sending positive thoughts your way. 😊

Lilsophhz06, regarding your suicidal thoughts the key part of your posting is when you say: "clearly I don't want to". What you are experiencing is strange thoughts and many people with anxiety disorder experience strange or intrusive thoughts. The thing is, it's o.k. to have strange thoughts, just accept them, attach no importance to them. But if "clearly I don't want to" ever changes then you must seek immediate help from your doctor or a&e/er. As sarbear7 rightly says, you must pester your doctor to get you referred to a therapist or psychiatrist to get proper help.

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well im glad i saw this because recently ive been feeling quite the same! i watched a tv series, quite popular, called '13 reasons why' and the graphics and the whole storyline of suicide really triggered me, and now i cannot stop obsessing over the thought of suicide even though im trying to fight these thoughts and do not want to do it! I would never even hurt a fly let alone myself!