Does anybody else get consumed with negative thoughts about themselves and general anxiety when starting a new relationship?
I ve been alone for years as i have isolated myself without realising until its too late.I have few friends outside of work, i do have a fantastic sister though who has her own struggles so i dont want to talk to her about my problems incase it sparks off her depression again. I just wonderd if anyone could help me out.
I m desperatly lonely, though i wont admit that to anyone, my greatest wish is to meet someone and not be alone anymore. I ve recently met a man and this has sparked off a bad anxiety episode. He gave me his number, he s taken me out, he texts me regularly and yet im consumed with the thoughts that he s doing it as a joke and he does nt really like me. H e knows i get anxious, he noticed it despite my oscar worthy performance of being outgoing and confident.
I try really hard not to be needy and to act like a normal person was. H e had to cancel a date the other day and it instantly made my anxiety dissapear, it must be a see i told you so but to myself...why do i do that!
I just want to be able to relax and enjoy new things happening to me, im frightend, all the time im frightend of life and of being cast aside again. I seem to be disposable, i attract men who are looking for a port in a storm, i fix them up and they leave me. Can anyone help with some advice so i can break this habit, i dont want to be alone for the rest of my life and im all too aware that its something im doing that drives them away xx