I just feel so so sad....

[Roserose]

Tried to go out for a meal this evening and just as we were about to sit down I burst into tears and had to runaway. My friends mum took me to my boyfriends house and I just felt so uncomfortable and like im losing the plot and I feel like ive lost who I am.... I'm so scared and I feel like my heart is breaking.. I now it sounds very dramatic but its how I feel. I miss how it used to be when I was happy and my head was filled with great things and I could sit with my OH and just be happy and in the moment.....!!! I just miss it so so much. Feel like im falling apart.

[Hidden]

Sorry Rose its not been a good evening

You will get back who you used to be , it does take time , but she will still be there

Maybe see the GP again & let them no how you feel , rather than suffering & feeling you are getting worse , maybe the meds you said you take , need looking at

Still , earlier you felt you couldnt go out & was afraid to see OH , & yet OK might have not gone to plan , but you did go out & you did see him , how ever small something is you acheive , it is a positive

I bet he was really pleased to see you , did you get a present as he has been away

Love

whywhy

xxx

[bonnie1959]

Hi Roserose

Sorry to hear you have not had a good evening. It was good of your friends mum to take you to your boyfriends. Did you manage to stay at your boyfriends for a bit,? if you did that would be a start. Did he take you home? that also would have been a small start for you both , and a positive for you. You will return to your former self rose, it just takes time. But try and put positives to it, you did go out, you did see your boyfriend. Also maybe see GP about meds, I think you said before you had been on them a month at the time, maybe its longer now. You can always have a chat with him and see what he says.

Bonnie

xxxx

[seyi]

Hi Rose

So sorry you had an unpleasant evening just try and put it behind you know its hard and your most likely saying easy said than done but i have been there. Make sure you go back again same place and make a conscience effort to sit eat nothing bad will happen. Its the mind playing awful games. I

[seyi]

CONT OPPS

You will get over this but it takes time and patience and like previous comments go and see the Doctor ask for some help. I have been on medication now for 5 months now and shortly will try and reduce as i am slowly getting back to some normal life. Not saying it will be easy but you will conquer this with positive thoughts and determination. Wish you luck.

Hugs

Love Seyi xxx Sorry about the seperate comments dont know whats happening here

[Roserose in reply to seyi]

haha dont worry and Thank you seyi. I don't think we have met properly yet. so hello. really appreciate your reply. everyone is so lovely xxxxx

[seyi in reply to Roserose]

Hi pleasure to meet you. This site and the wonderful people have been a fantastic help. Never thought i would leave my house again and try and live a normal life. Stay positive take care hugs xxx Seyi x

[Roserose in reply to seyi]

I will seyi. So great to hear you feel so close to recovery. You can do it xxxx

[Roserose]

Thanks guys, I think I might just do that and see what my GP says. My head is a complete and utter mess. I stayed for about an hour and a half and then left. He gave me two presents. A camera magazine and some owl pjamas.... we have this ongoing thing where we think of each other as owls (don't ask) and for his bday I bought him a tattoo of an owl (ill have to post a photo its gained celebrity status lol) holding a rose and we always get something owl related for special occasions. feel free to barf lol.

I will keep thinking of the positives. Thanks so much again for the replies..... You guys are so kind xxxx

[Hidden in reply to Roserose]

I think a visit to the GP would be a great idea

You did well , an hour & a half , especially as you didnt feel you could go this morning at all , feel proud

No thats love when you have little things you do , just between you both , I think its cute

When you say you bought him a tattoo , you mean you paid for him to have one on ? how come it has gained celebrity status do tell

Yes would love to see a pic & dont forget the pic of you & your friend you were going to put on , I love pic time on here , it seems to have taken of

Let us no how you go on at the GP'S

xxx

[Roserose in reply to Hidden]

yeah I guess I didn't do too badly

ha oh yeah forgot i'll do that tomorrow. definitely. Ill post the tattoo picture now... and yes I meant paid to have one done... bad use of language lol. Well over 15,000 people have liked it online and its been in a magazine rated as one of the top 100 animal tattoo's. I'll post now.

After crying, my gaaaaad my head is killing me.

will def let you know how I get on whywhy xxxx

[Hidden in reply to Roserose]

Is that where he got the idea from the magazine , or did he design it & then it got in the magazine

O take some pain killers & get to bed , in your new PJ'S

xxx

[Roserose in reply to Hidden]

No he explained what he wanted to the tattooist and then he had it tattooed. once it was put online thousands of people liked it and then a couple of weeks ago got put in the mag. Purdy cool :).

pain killer... check.

pj's ... check...

bed time... check. n night whywhy.

speak to you tomorrow. lots of love, and sweet dreams xxx

[Hidden in reply to Roserose]

Well done OH

Think he should be on commission , was his idea

Hope you feel better tomorrow

xxx

[Hidden]

Hey Rose I'm sorry to hear you've had a bad evening. You will get past this and be back to your old self. Sending you loads of positive thoughts. Hope tomorrow is a better day for you.

[Roserose in reply to Hidden]

Thanks willrich x